Readyoneday

Well for a week now I have been reading posts, contiplating going to an AA meeting, hated myself, hated everyone else, and continued to finish off the last of the three bottles of vodka I had in the fridge.

Last night I finished all of it. Today I have a plan to be able to not drink myself asleep. I'm sure I can make it a few days at least with out a drink, I've done it before. Sometimes for years.

This last year has been extremly difficult for me both emotionally and physycally.

My axiety and depression symptoms, has gone throught the roof, and without medical insurance to get help or medication to ease the syptoms I turned to alchol. It started with two drinks a night to help me sleep. Then four, and then some nights (especially if I got caught up texting ) I'd lose count and barely make it to my room.

My social life is none exsistant. I've stopped going out with friends because i know I won't be able to control how much I drink, and won't be able to drive. So I stay home and drink. Usually having my first with dinner. and by ten pm i'm wasted and crawling to bed.

I'm really not sure why I'm writing all of this or what will happen over the next week. Maybe if I put it out there I can regain some control in my life.

Forgive any spelling errors, I don't have spell check :/

veryready

welcome

doggonecarl

Welcome, Readyoneday. Glad to read that you are ready TOday.

Readyoneday

Thank you.