| Serenity47 | 11-02-2012 11:41 PM |
A decision
I have been married for twenty years. My husband I drank together until I crossed the invisible line and thank God I found Him in AA and have been sober for almost four years. I am focusing on emotional sobriety and in every area of my life I am so blessed to have made progress and am of use and happy because of that except at home. I am around alcohol a lot because friends family all drink which is ok. What still is not ok is that my husband drinks. He said that he would stop because it did not mean much to him but strangely, or not so strangely, he began to drink more. I do not want to ask him to stop. I have invited him to AA and al anon (I go because my parents are active alcoholics and my husband drinks more than I thought) but he chooses not to. As a result I feel angry and alone due to the loss of the relationship we once had and the fact that we cannot seem to build a new one together. I feel terrible feeling and showing anger. I see a therapist, we have gone together but ultimately we stop as he does not like what he hears, go to meetings, am of service, work with a sponsor. Why am I writing? I am sad and needed to talk to my people. I entitled this a decision I remember now. Ick. I have an 11 year old daughter. Need to make a decision. Thank you all for being here to listen. I am open to hearing your experience strength and hope. | 