Shoebox62

Sometimes I'm wistful for alcohol because I want to escape, but then I remember that wherever I go, there I am.

EternalQ

Sometimes I am wistful for alcohol when I spend time with people I used to drink with.

But then I remember their lives are ruled by alcohol, and they have to leave what we are doing and go drink.

Whereas my life is ruled by me and I can do whatever i want whenever I want without factoring in alcohol.

I remember they are prisoners, but I got out of prison.

I keep in touch with them (though they are in prison) because they are my friends. But I am not crazy enough to return to prison now that I've freed myself.

Especially when they could free themselves too.

Junebugapril

Sometimes I am wistful for alcohol because I am angry that everyone else in the world except me can be a social drinker. Then the anger comes that I have a drinking problem, and I get resentful that I can't drink. Finally, I realize that I can do it for the next ten minutes. That if I really want a drink later, I can have one. Just not now. And eventually, I feel peaceful and happy that I am still wine-free.

EternalQ

Sometimes I am wistful for alcohol because I really miss my Mother.
But then I remember how much she suffered, and I want her to have peace. And if she knew I wasn't drinking it would bring her some peace.

Stang

Because I like to get drunk....then I remember all the misery that behavior causes.

Reeny

Sometimes I'm wistful for alcohol because I've only been sober one week but then I remember the look of dejection and sadness in my son's eyes last time I weakened.

FeelingGreat

Sometimes I'm wistful for because I miss the buzz, but then I remember the self loathing of the morning after.

Lyoness

Sometimes I am wistful for oxycodone because I want to be wrapped in its bubble of warmth but then I remember how much more time I spend in hell if I do.

Sometimes I am wistful for oxycodone because I want to escape but then I remember that I'm always here/me and I can't escape myself.

EternalQ

Sometimes I am wistful for alcohol because I think then I won't have to work on character change.
But then I realize I can hit the pause button without going back to drinking!

EternalQ

Sometimes I get wistful for alcohol because I think it would calm me during my stress...
but then I realize that if I drink then I will never do anything to change the stressors in my life... which is what needs to happen.

EternalQ

Sometimes I get wistful for alcohol because things feel strange without it...
... like something is missing...
..but then I realize that the alcohol isn't what is missing....
... feeling my feelings is what is missing.

Heartfan82

Sometimes I'm wistful because I don't feel like myself without it; but then I remember I want to be the ME I was before it!

SoberKat9

Sometimes I'm wistful for alcohol because I really do enjoy the taste of wine. But then I remember that tasting wine isn't much fun anymore since after the first couple I won't remember what they tasted like anyway and just feel hungover and disappointed the next day.

Jeni26

Sometimes I'm wistful for alcohol because I need to blot out today because it seems just a little too hard to face, then I remember that what I've got today is in actual fact a hell of a lot better without alcohol in my life. It is real. And I remember to feel gratitude for all the ways in which real is better than numb.

EternalQ

Sometimes I am wistful for alcohol, because I want a reward at days end...
but then I realize that alcohol is punishment... sheer torture!

Grungehead

Sometimes I am wistful for alcohol, because...it helps me escape life.
But then I realize....life is always waiting for me the next day.

So my only 2 choices are to get drunk every day or not drink at all because life is always there waiting for me. Today I have chosen not to drink and face life. After being in and out of recovery for 23 years I think I'm finally starting to REALLY understand the slogan "one day at a time". What can I say, I'm a slow learner lol.

EternalQ

Sometimes I am wistful for alcohol, because:
I feel like a deserve a reward
or deserve to relax
or think I need help bearing the pain of disappointment
or this
or that
or....
But then I soon realize:
Alcohol is suicide and hardly a positive reinforcer!
And the anxiety and guilt I would feel if I drank would NOT relax me!
And alcohol would severely add to my feelings of disaapointment!
And alcohol would not allow me to make the changes I need to make to feel more fulfilled!!
And everything is ok as it is RIGHT NOW
And this...
And that...
And....

LadyBlue0527

Thanks for bringing this to the top EternalQ! Great replies to read through There are many answers that I can give but the one that comes to mind at the moment (and applies to how I felt yesterday when all those get togethers were going on) is

Sometimes I am wistful for alcohol because at that particular moment all my drinking buddies are having a great time, but then I soon realize that the next morning, while I have a smile on my face and am truly enjoying my day, that they won't be!

Notmyrealname

Sometimes I am wistful for alcohol because it is woven into a lot of our social culture and interaction. People frequently get together for socializing and alcohol. But then I soon realize that the price of that after-work happy hour or a Friday night trip to the bar includes

1) me not doing anything productive most of the time
2) anxiety
3) guilt/shame/loss of self-respect
4) lots and lots of money over time
5) and somewhere there will inevitably be some kind of train wreck

"Curse you, alcohol, and your sudden but inevitable betrayal!"

Carlygirl

Sometimes I am wistful for alcohol because I developed the habit of drinking alcohol. Then I realise that if I drink, I'll do it again and again and again.