Trying to run before I can jump
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Join Date: Oct 2012
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Trying to run before I can jump
Hey everybody! This is how it is for me, I just want to be normal! Normal life, normal drinker, but tried n tried n more tried n It's not gonna happen! Sad for me but very true! Thats all I'm willing to spill for now! Thanx for listening xox
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I know, Ange. That's what I wanted, too. I spent many years trying to make it so, and almost destroyed myself. Once I finally understood that I couldn't touch it, it was actually a relief. No more sneaking, lying, hangovers, chaos.
I'm glad you joined us. You'll find this is an amazing place with so many wonderful people wanting to help. Please keep reading and posting.
I'm glad you joined us. You'll find this is an amazing place with so many wonderful people wanting to help. Please keep reading and posting.
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Join Date: Jun 2010
Location: UK
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Ange - you can have a normal life.
What we did was not normal.
It's not normal to drink in the morning.
It is not normal to have another drink to get over having to much to drink, to kill a hangover.
It is normal to have to have a few to leave the house.
It is not normal to have 10 diffrernt booze shops on rotation so that you can buy your booze without the shop owner guessing that your a boozer.
It is normal to only be able to know you can make it through a wedding, a christening, a funeral with a vat of booze.
It's not normal to go out for one or two, wake up not remembering how we got home, who came home with us and covered in bruises.
I learnt all this after a few weeks sober.
I went to a christmas party, no-one was balckout drunk like I would have been.
I went to a wedding, no-one was staggering aroun to the extent I would have been.
It's going to be different.
You have to learn new habits.
You have to smash that favourite glass.
I have 260 days tomorrow and yes, sometmes i have felt bored, sometimes I have felt 'different' but it's a small price to pay for not waking up every morning wishing I was dead.
I wish you the very best and I am glad you are here and that you post often xx
What we did was not normal.
It's not normal to drink in the morning.
It is not normal to have another drink to get over having to much to drink, to kill a hangover.
It is normal to have to have a few to leave the house.
It is not normal to have 10 diffrernt booze shops on rotation so that you can buy your booze without the shop owner guessing that your a boozer.
It is normal to only be able to know you can make it through a wedding, a christening, a funeral with a vat of booze.
It's not normal to go out for one or two, wake up not remembering how we got home, who came home with us and covered in bruises.
I learnt all this after a few weeks sober.
I went to a christmas party, no-one was balckout drunk like I would have been.
I went to a wedding, no-one was staggering aroun to the extent I would have been.
It's going to be different.
You have to learn new habits.
You have to smash that favourite glass.
I have 260 days tomorrow and yes, sometmes i have felt bored, sometimes I have felt 'different' but it's a small price to pay for not waking up every morning wishing I was dead.
I wish you the very best and I am glad you are here and that you post often xx
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Yes, as others have said, we all wanted to be normal drinkers, but the reality is that we can't. But, the good news is you can learn to live a sober life and to get through the ups and downs of life without alcohol.
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