Weasel1966

I reached a new milestone. It was not something obvious to me as even being a milestone.

Me about a month ago:
3PM everyday would typically be when my heart would beat a little faster. My thoughts became muddy. The bargaining was in full swing. I would be outwardly calm but inside wheeling and dealing what I would drink and how much.... Like, i should have only two tonight so I can work in the morning ok.

Me today:
My thoughts focus on the meeting I plan to go to. I think about how I can get the most out of my time with my partner before and after the meeting. Trying to squeeze in some workout time. Basically I have more full and activity filled days than in a very long time. I leave my partner sitting on the couch and go to socialize a bit on my own.

This has carried over to my weekend. This weekend I broke that Sunday drinking pattern. Next week I need to keep smashing it and forge new routines.

Basically a routine of not drinking is emerging. My newest milestone.

That's the big difference between the last six months of ups and downs and now.

My routine before were the ups and downs and that was seemingly the goal. Let me tell ya.... I have posts to show for those efforts.

I even passed the bar on Saturday and laughed when I noticed I did it without scheming to figure out how to get in there unscathed by guilt.

Still I make no assumptions about anything. Just seems that I noticed this change.

Not drinking is a means to an end.... It is not a goal.

K

lilgolden73

What a great post...I am only 2 weeks in and still think about drinking....but its getting better! Your doing great!

Weasel1966

LG.... I think about drinking a lot still as well. But my daily routine is changing focus. I find I can plan things a bit better without the obsessions. I am taking it as it comes but the last few weeks have been much better for me.

Congrats on the two weeks! Keep it going!

K

Mark75

Thanx for sharing that.

FreeFall

BIG milestone! The day that drinking thoughts take a back seat to others is huge. Planning that has has nothing to do with drinking, also huge. Doing it clear headed and through the weekend, best of all.

I'm finding fuller days too. Somehow there is now room for exercise, reading, cooking, and other things that I never had time for while drinking.

Fandy

you're doing great Weasel, even with a cold...you are really finding yourself and sound good. the glass is 1/2 full and it's not full of booze.

Weasel1966

Yes I still have this cold!!! Woke with a fever this morning. I am never sick this long but I will have to deal. I used all my sick days as drunk recovery days. So I have to be here not feeling well.

Fandy

it takes time to rebuild your immune system..but you will. (the chicken soup)!
Like mama always said "Wash Your Hands"!

Dee74

I find the big changes can often come in little increments
Great going Ken

FreeFall

lol re passing the bar! Only at SR does this mean something completely different than in "real life". I wish we made the cash for passing the bar that attorneys do

Purplecatlover

Relish in the accomplishments! They will add up. Hours turn into days turn into weeks. Etc... Into a whole new life. It's well worth it. You're doing awesome!!