perea3

OK lets try this again. I have spent the last few months/weeks trying to decide if I should give this another shot. Sober I mean. I payed attention to the actions of others while drinking and not drinking. It's amaizing what you can learn. I saw woman who were mild mannered turn into sluts. I watched 75 year old men become weird, nasty and perverted. I watched bar owners who have no respect for themselves or there help. My own husband was rude and lets just say not very appealing. I tried to pay attention also to my actions. I became more verbal, less ladylike. At home afterwards, I became depressed, angry and sad.
I don't know why this is so hard. It's a no brainer. I also know that it's not going to be easy. I'm going on 19 hours. I'm at work so all is good so far. At 21 hours I will have to go home and deal with it.
Please pray for me as I will for all of you.
Diana

least

I had too many day ones to count but I finally made it - so can you! Never give up!

instant

I had so many day 1's that never got off the ground. Keeping giving it a go- you will manage it eventually.

Alcohol is not a performance enhancing drug!!

Anna

Diana, I'm glad you're back and trying again.

Is there something that you can do differently this time, so you don't have anymore Day 1's?

Rock2534

Good luck Diana! I'm in the same boat with day one again but you got to start somewhere.

hypochondriac

Glad you're giving it another go Diana Have you got some support too? x

Dee74

Welcome back Diana

I agree with Anna - try and think about what else you can add this time to whatever you've been doing in the past

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perea3

I will have to think about that? Great question. Thanks
Diana

Dee74

yeah, I think it's important to think about

like I said elsewhere today I really believe if we don't do something different, we're pretty much bound to end up doing the same.

D

tomsteve

diana, i am glad ya seeing the problem. i am also glad to see ya asking for prayers. that is teeling me that you believe in a higher power. if that is the case, AA just may be the program and fellowship to help you get and stay sober.

prayers yer way

Delilah1

Welcome Diana,

The fact that you keep coming back to SR shows that you want to quit. I had too many day ones to count. This time I took it seriously and have worked with my doctor, a counselor, attended a few group meetings and confided in a few trusted friends.

I am only on day 11, but once I reach day 17 it will be the most sober days I have had in over four and a half years. I have three kids that are 9,7 and 5 and I was able to stay sober while pregnant and nursing. They need me sober just as much now.

Use every possible support system you can, and keep posting and reading on SR. You can do this.

Itchy

What Anna and Dee said.
I never could get one day sober for a decade and a half before I quit. I too believe that if we always do things, the way we always did them, we will always get the same results.

I finally made it and so can you.

lenches13

I am on day one too....hang in there. It's been a tough night but I know the night time is my greatest vulnerability. You can do this I'm also thinking of how I can approach this different.