Bubba09

Alright I admit it

I'm an alcoholic and I'm finally accepting it.

I have no control over alcohol and it is and forever will ruin my life if it holds a place in my life.

So I'm done
Alcohol has never added AnY good to my life and I've watched it completely ruin my parents lives and I have no idea how I thought it wouldn't do the same to me but it has.
So I'm going to learn to live without it.

I guess being a 26 year old female I just thought I was having fun but I realize I have a problem
So here's to day 1 of my new life!!
Thank you all for your support
Thank you for the forums
I hope everyone has a wonderful day

hypochondriac

This is so true. I can't think of any positives to drinking!

Welcome to SR x

Blondie0419

I can only think of bad that has come from drinking! Welcome!

Fernaceman

Great post! I love your enthusiasm about your realization.

As many will say, this is the beginning of an incredible journey. We cannot do it alone, we have tried that many times before without success.

Be glad you have received this blessing. Many do not realize it nor wish to admit or accept it.

Keep it up!

dSober

Congratulations Bubba09. You've just begun the road to recovery. You've done the most difficult part of Step 1. I would recommend finding one or more nearby meetings through Alcoholics Anonymous :, or however, so you can meet other alcoholics near you (yeah, there are lots, everywhere) . They'll tell you how to keep going. This place is great but so are meetings.

Dee74

good for you Bubba - admitting that for me was a great step forward

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Hevyn

Great job, Bubba. It was so hard for me to see the light. Glad you are on your way to a new life.

lilgolden73

My drinking to reach a bad place til I was around 30! So happy you made the decision to stop now!

firestorm090

Welcome Bubba,

The only good thing that alcohol brought me to was recovery and the people I've met who no longer need a crutch to face life. Recovery is like hitting the mother lode, you have to dig for it. ODAAT.

Delilah1

Good for you, I wish I had the courage and clarity to stop at 26. I am 41 and just now able to admit what you did. You should feel very proud of yourself!

MythOfSisyphus

God, you're telling me!:rotfxko I'm 43 and just realized that booze was gonna put me in the ground!

Good on you for facing the music!

Bubba09

Thanks everyone for your reply!
Day one wasn't the most ideal situation for me!
I had to attend and octoberfest party and my friend text me and said "remember to bring a 6 pack"
I asked if I had to if I wasn't drinking and she told me yes because it was to help cover the cost of food. So there I am in the liquor store. The place I've probably been in more times than all my friends combined, buying a 6 pack of beer. Waste of ten dollars...
Then at the party I'm drinking my water and this guy would not stop asking me why I wasn't drinking. He said "Is it just tonite or do you not drink?" and then hr told me how it's fine because he has lots of friends who don't drink. I just told him I wasn't drinking tonite, because I didn't want to have to explain to a total stranger my life story.
I got offered drinks every TEN minutes but I stood strong!
I dont WANT to drink
I just kept telling myself these people are normal, they can drink slowly, relaxed, have a couple and still have fun. I can't.
I read a quote someone had on their signature and I think it's my new life motto! I don't remember exactly but this was my interpretation.
"We often sacrifice what we want MOST, for what we want RIGHT NOW"

dSober

Keep replaying that quote in you avoid. Bubba. Sounds right to me. I've sacrificed what I want most many, many times. I regret every single time.

I'm really glad you survived day 1. I think you should try to avoid those situations, especially in early sobriety. As you obviously know, very dangerous waters.

dSober

Soory about the typo, should read: Keep replaying that quote in your head Bubba.

Delilah1

Great job at the Octoberfest party.