Empty and depressed.
 

Today has been sh*t.

I feel hopelessly depressed and empty inside, I don't know what to do. I have no interest or motivation to do anything. I've been pacing around the house feeling miserable all day.

Life seems meaningless, like I have nothing to look forward to, like I have nothing to live for. I'm not suicidal & I don't want to use, I just want this horrible feeling to go away.

How about going to an NA meeting and talking about how you feel?...That's what I would do. I can't hold that kind of stuff in....I need to talk about it with people that are like me.

Jake.... I have been where you describe. It's not easy to see past the fog. Like the is a darkness over everything.

Our bodies and minds are adjusting to a big change. Go easy on yourself. Feeling will and do pass. I am sure you know that but sometimes it's best to hear it again.

Posting is a good step. Never dwell on things like this alone. We are all here.

Glad you are here, amigo.

Sobriety has some dark days, particularly at first.

Please be sure to stick around and keep sharing.

I remember that feeling Jake...reaching out helped me...I needed to know I wasn;t alone and that this was not the way my life would be for good.

I hope you're doing the same right now :)

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Hi Jake,
I know the feeling. I'm at almost 4 months and I can tell you, no one told me how much worse the depression would be when I got sober. I've had some bleak days since, and I was suicidal before I quit drinking. But I've also had 2, count 'em, 2 good days so far, just in the past week, days that gave me hope that it could happen. Days where there was no special reason for me to feel good, but I had moments of, "I actually feel...ok? Happy even?" Totally foreign to me. I didn't even recognize it, I only ever got that feeling after a few drinks, which of course was temporary and fake.
Anyway...I'm there with you, most days. But some days, and hopefully more in the future, I get a glimpse of what feeling ok is like. It's out there, for you too. Good days are coming, just hang in there. I've been meditating and it's helped me immensely, ever tried it? It could really help you get through this.
Take care.

Sending you love Jake xx

How are you doing today Jake?

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