Ready2Bmeagain | 09-25-2012 09:01 PM | Back again In July I went on a family vacation to the Gulf Coast. It was a big deal with the whole family (my Mom & Dad, Brother & Sister and their kids, me, my wife and our kids) that we had been planning for a year to celebrate some significant milestones happening in our families. I was WAY over confident in my sobriety, as I hadn't had any kind of cravings in weeks (I had only been sober for about a month and a half) and the thought of any alchohol turned my stomach sour. On the third day of our trip while I was out on the boat and fishing in the ocean with my brother it happened. Without even thinking of what I was doing I reached into the cooler and grabbed a beer like I had done a thousand times before while fishing with my brother. By the time we came in off of the ocean I had drank four or five beers. I knew the next morning that I had made a Monster of a mistake, and all of the cravings and the old feelings came crashing back down like the waves outside of our beach house. Long story short, but it has taken me ten weeks to get that monster back in it's cage and I am happy to say that today is day 3 of being sober again, and as angry as I am at myself for being so cavalier and careless with my actions, I am equally grateful for the fact that the lesson I obviously needed to learn didn't return me permently back onto the path of the slow suicide I was committing by drinking myself to death. |