MightyMung

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not spamming just editing

Kza

Why did you delete all that?

MightyMung

feel like scum, let everoyone who matters to me down

Kza

I know that feeling. You stillnhave a chance not to mess up Exeter.

SoberForMySon

I read your posts before you offed them. You're not scum. Hang tough, you're special and we care. You came here..

Sapling

Take care of yourself...Don't worry about people here..Do you think you need some medical attention?

MightyMung

I would if i didn't have tolerance. As it is i'll keep posting here (it may be drivel but it givse me checpoints) to keep my awake til the half-life of the opiates run out (the ketamine has already worn off).

what styuns me most is: how the HELL did i go from committed abstinent person this morning to shooting ket into my thighs? what changed in my psyche? i need to zero in on what it was and address it

Anna

I hope you're okay, MM, and try to not let this get you down too much. It could lead to more drinking. I know that happened to me many times.

SoberForMySon

Mm that's not good. Please get some help, here and in real life. You are too smart to **** it away

Sapling

You have some people with you MM?

MightyMung

Despite being wasted. I will NOT consume anything else this evening. I left the venue early becaUse I snsed I was in trobule and i'm trying to sober up at home. I do not want to live like this any mroe, I now know i nede to avoid all events of this nature. How stupid of me to thikn I could rise to the challenge of stayijng sober at a drum and bass night full of drug addicts in denial. Couldn't walk 5 metres without being offered drugs. Stupid, stupid me.

SoberForMySon

Mm, live and learn. Grow. You can do this. I would say to call me but UK to US is probably ridiculous. PM. Hang tough. Be strong, try again. It is over and done. Now start new.

Anna

MM, it was a bad decision, but you learned something valuable.

I'm glad you're home and safe.

Soberween

You are not scum. There is something about you that is so likable. Your posts are always from the gut and are so honest. Keep coming back. This stuff can take a lot of do overs. It's so hard, but it does get easier.

SoberForMySon

Mm are you ok????

MightyMung

Still here don't worry. Just trying to think of a battle plan for tomorrow. If i'm still committed to sobriety while wasted that has to be a positive. Just researching what extra measures to take tmorrowrow.

SoberForMySon

Yes, you are good. You came to us. MM we happen to love you, screw ups and all. We wouldn't be SR without you. Please come back, and please post. And yes, make a plan, dear. You are cute and smart. You can do this. You have way too much to lose. Few have your gifts. Hate to see them lost. But I know you can do it. You are clever and tough. And we love you. We are here, day And night. Always.

MightyMung

Feeling considerably more lucid now. Thank God I left town. Sorry for the non-contributory posts

SoberForMySon

Keep posting, friend, god love you for coming here. You have hope