Fell off the wagon (long ago)
 

yea, I miss you guys, can't say good or bad about anything, only that I haven't havent had a nervous breakdown (yet) it's not good out here, the progression of the disease is as certain as anything, my boat comes out of the water in 6 weeks so i look forward to some re-generation and progress in life this winter, you guys are the best,,,, Dan

I was thinking about you the other day Dan...Glad you are back.

Glad to hear you are still hangin in there dude, I am back, not sure in what level yet but i think i'll dry out and get some things done soon, right now i'm fairly toast, (not to corupt the new people, sober is way better if you can do it) my indescretions have reached a new level and that's all i'll say about that, it's not good for the health...

I'm coming up on 15 months Dan....I'm glad that you still have the desire to stop this for good....Or you wouldn't be here. Let's get busy!

congratulations Sapling on 15 months, are you taking anthing for sanity besides AA?

Nope...That did the trick. I have been restored to sanity by a Power greater than myself...I just realised I couldn't do this alone Dan....And I got tired of trying.

Hi OCDDan and welcome back!

That's exactly the same thing I used to say to myself, especially at the end of my drinking. I felt like it took more and more effort to hold it together.

(Now that I think about it, when I'd finally had enough, it felt a lot like a breakdown, even though most call it surrender or whatever.... so maybe it's not a bad thing!)

It's good to see you here.....:wavey:

there is a difference from AA with happy people, and Blistering over the wall crazy naked fun, i don't know if i can make the change.

Is it really fun tho Dan? :dunno:

Welcome back mate.
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I don't know.....I guess I got to the point it wasn't fun anymore. Anybody can make the change....Maybe you just have to get to that point. I'm glad you're here anyway.

In all respect i should say no, but... I'm sorry, my addiction runs deep, not only to alcohol obviously, Dee, I could stay off this site as I'm a very, very bad influence, I'm in a hole so deep, it's almost hopeless.. sorry fellas and ladies, that's how bad it gets..

I clung to my old life too - I convinced myself that what I was doing was *living*, man, sucking the marrow from the bones of life...

But when I'd first wake up in the morning, sick, sore, unexplained injuries...
and I'd look at myself in the mirror and I'd remember flashes of all I'd done and said last night...

I knew I was full of it.
That guy wasn't who I wanted to be, not really.

Only you know who you really want to be, Dan.

We're always here with the door open... :)
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I know Dee, I'm mis-guided, would you just wake up, blow a few lines and then pop a valium or two at work? or just tough it out? obviously there's a few shorts in the wiring harness here..

ok, i'm checking out, thanks for the fine comrodrae

Not sure I understand the question...if you mean what would I/did I do to detox...I nearly died from my Mr Macho Man home alone detox, Dan.

I always *always* recommend a Dr.

Hope to see you posting again soon Dan.
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I kept thinking sometimes it was still fun, for me the price of that kind of fun just became far to great. And the bad definaltley outweighed any fun...

Good to see your coming back around.. :)

hmm, today we start with Ibuprofen, interesting (for me) to read this thread and try to make sense out of it. and now i can't eat anything until I get my yearly (fasting) blood tests in 4 hours, and also the blood tests for my "indescretions" they already gave me the master antibiotics yesterday, so i at least feel clean in one small way.. think I'll go back to bed for a bit, or should i have some black coffee and pick up where i left off?? i think part of my problem is I met this attractive young lady 30 years my junior (who always wants money of course) and is simply irresistable, she's 24 but looks likes she's 15, I might need another addiction help website for that issue..

Dan - I don't know you but from your posts I can say your story is an exact duplicate of a friend of mine's ... He's in DEEP and I fear for his life everyday. But, he isn't ready. He will know when he is, hopefully before it is too late, and you will too.

You have already taken the first step in recognizing you have an issue with drugs and alcohol - when your time comes to face it and conquer we are all here to support you.

Wishing you the best on your personal journey :)

Good luck with staying off the booze Dan,

Bruno.

There are meetings for SA too dan... (I'm assuming that's what you're getting at). Don't give up on yourself and just do what needs to be done x