Prettynoose

After three half-hearted weeks full of relapses, complaining about everything and not wanting to go to AA, I am finally done this time. Some things happened and I finally hit a low enough spot for me and had my eyes opened in a new way to my addiction.

I went to a great meeting last night, and am looking forward to tomorrows meeting and really working through the steps.

I feel like I am detoxing all over again. I can hardly get out of bed today, can't eat, and feel really weak physically, but this time I feel like there is hope. I am looking forward to the new life I can have, to being the kind of wife and mom I need to be.

Last week I could not honestly say I was done with alcohol. There was still a part of me that reserved the right to drink once in a while. And since that was the case I could not possibly get better.

Anyway thank you to everyone here for your love and support.

pipparina

Great that you feel it deep in your gut. Allowing yourself the out to drink again usually gets you back out there drinking. We have to remember it is poison to us.

Keep posting and let us know how you're doing. We routing for you!

least

Your 'bottom' is where you stop digging. Good for you for giving it another go.

Sapling

Good for you...Sounds like you've had enough...Was that your first meeting last night?

Sobersunshine

You can do it Pretty!

Panacea

Great job Prettynoose - this part is hard but you can and will get through it. I am a wife and mother struggling with the same things you are. Reach out for support - here, in your AA group -- it can and will get better.

Take care of yourself - Panacea

Prettynoose

Thanks everyone. It was my second meeting, but the first one I wanted to be at.

Hevyn

Hello Pretty. I was like that, too - needed to have it proven to me why I had to stop. I knew in my heart it was destroying me years before I actually quit. I'm sorry for what you've gone through, but here is where it can end. There's a new life waiting for you, and it sounds like you're ready to embrace it.