Kza

I feel like I make myself unhappy so I can drink. Is that normal for alkies or is it the other way round or both?

Dee74

I think I definitely felt more comfortable being unhappy for a lot of years - I got used to it...and got scared of feeling happy.

Not sure I deliberately made myself unhappy tho, in order to drink...I didn't need an excuse, really Kza.

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Anna

Yes, I know it was for me.

I sabotaged myself for a long time. Believe that you deserve a good life. We all do.

Kza

Yes, that is what I have been doing. People over the years have said to me that I don't want to enjoy myself.

zanzibar

I would look for the negative in everything so I would always have a reason to drink.

Soberween

"I drink because I'm depressed." Now turn the sentence around. "I'm depressed because I drink." With some decent amount of sobriety under my belt, I learned that the latter was the truth. All the depression went away when I finally put the drink down for good.

aeo1313

I would do this about everything. I was gaining weight bc I had just let myself go and I would complain about it all the time to my husband who would tell me to do something about it then, but I never did, bc then what would I complain about? I would drink, and use, and eat, and complain that life sucked bc it was easier to stay in that cycle.