Two weeks sober tomorrow!
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Two weeks sober tomorrow!
Hi guys!
Been lurking here for the past two weeks without posting.
For over six months I've been struggling with constant relapses with 2-5 days of sobriety in between. I'm very much a do it yourself kind of person and I couldn't really find any kind of recovery that was really working for me, all the way. (Had previously been drinking for 6-7 years pretty much non stop.)
About two weeks ago I suddenly felt like my outlook on life had changed. I experienced the worst withdrawals of my life (Kindling - hello!). Late that same night, while sitting in the dark, in my bedroom, I came across AVRT.
I went through the "Crash Course" and to my surprise it all fell into place for me and I made the "Big Plan" (I'll have my next drink in year 2212).
Nothing has worked this well, to keep my cravings and impulses to drink at bay before. I honestly hardly think about drinking. However, I do realize that the beast is not dead, so I have to keep working on my recovery. But this is the best I've felt about not drinking since the start of my drinking career. I feel much more level headed than I have in years, not just about drinking, but about my situation in general. I feel like I'm back on track and the fog has lifted in many aspects.
I've always been like this. I've always seen things quite black and white. Either way - YAY!
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Been lurking here for the past two weeks without posting.
For over six months I've been struggling with constant relapses with 2-5 days of sobriety in between. I'm very much a do it yourself kind of person and I couldn't really find any kind of recovery that was really working for me, all the way. (Had previously been drinking for 6-7 years pretty much non stop.)
About two weeks ago I suddenly felt like my outlook on life had changed. I experienced the worst withdrawals of my life (Kindling - hello!). Late that same night, while sitting in the dark, in my bedroom, I came across AVRT.
I went through the "Crash Course" and to my surprise it all fell into place for me and I made the "Big Plan" (I'll have my next drink in year 2212).
Nothing has worked this well, to keep my cravings and impulses to drink at bay before. I honestly hardly think about drinking. However, I do realize that the beast is not dead, so I have to keep working on my recovery. But this is the best I've felt about not drinking since the start of my drinking career. I feel much more level headed than I have in years, not just about drinking, but about my situation in general. I feel like I'm back on track and the fog has lifted in many aspects.
I've always been like this. I've always seen things quite black and white. Either way - YAY!
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Originally Posted by DarkDays 
Well done on two weeks , look forward to seeing you post your one month post 
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Originally Posted by DarkDays
Just grind it out and move forward, cravings etc just suffer them , they wont harm you.
You have not got to go through this again.
You have not got to go through this again.
These days I have two techniques really to fight cravings.
1. According to AVRT I am not the one who wants a drink - it's the beast. IT wants a drink and why should I give it what it wants? I've decided to be a total egoist about this.
2.Urge surfing is good too.
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Originally Posted by DesperadoBlond
You're right!
These days I have two techniques really to fight cravings.
1. According to AVRT I am not the one who wants a drink - it's the beast. IT wants a drink and why should I give it what it wants? I've decided to be a total egoist about this.
2.Urge surfing is good too.
These days I have two techniques really to fight cravings.
1. According to AVRT I am not the one who wants a drink - it's the beast. IT wants a drink and why should I give it what it wants? I've decided to be a total egoist about this.
2.Urge surfing is good too.
I have been through some tough periods/cravings.
But I stated on these forums enough that being bored senseless and staring at a ceiling for a whole day is better than having that first drink and getting hooked back into the drink/hangover cycle.
I am never going back, ever.
Whats there to go back too ? just pain and misery .
I am gaining everything, sobriety is the greatest thing ever .
You are going to do this, I can feel it
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Originally Posted by DarkDays
I have been through some tough periods/cravings.
But I stated on these forums enough that being bored senseless and staring at a ceiling for a whole day is better than having that first drink and getting hooked back into the drink/hangover cycle.
I am never going back, ever.
Whats there to go back too ? just pain and misery .
I am gaining everything, sobriety is the greatest thing ever .
You are going to do this, I can feel it
But I stated on these forums enough that being bored senseless and staring at a ceiling for a whole day is better than having that first drink and getting hooked back into the drink/hangover cycle.
I am never going back, ever.
Whats there to go back too ? just pain and misery .
I am gaining everything, sobriety is the greatest thing ever .
You are going to do this, I can feel it
Now there's only sobriety left for peeps like you and me. I'm feel ok about it.
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Originally Posted by Huey
WAAHOOOOOEEY ! Welcome to AVRT All you've got to do is keep kicking that beast right up the ******* 
All you've got to do is keep kicking that beast right up the ******* 
Hi Huey!
YES! I had never heard of it before. I guess I had not done a good job at researching different recovery resources.
I am not at ALL saying the battle is over, but I finally found something that, in my mind, explained my relationship to alcohol, in an understandable way. Before, it was all a blur to me. Suddenly I feel like I have the tools I needed.
My biggest wake up-moment was really figuring out: It's not ME who wants a drink, it's IT (the beast) who wants it. I don't have a problem saying "no" to the beast. I take pleasure in denying it more fuel on the fire that was ruining my life. :rotfxko
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