aeo1313

I hope you guys aren't sick of these weekly posts but it seems every day I notice something great about living sober (even when I am sick with a cold like today).

I am finding at work I am drawn to the positive people now instead of gossiping with the negative ones. Even when the kids are stressful I don't run and hide like I was and let my husband deal with it- I stay in the picture and even though it sucks I am there. I almost NEVER feel guilty anymore!!! My life is an open book- I am not ashamed of anything I do now and therefor am never secretive or sneaky.

My relationship with food is also better. I would use being drunk or high as an excuse to binge eat. I eat healthy now and even though I am working hard to lose weight I am not hard on myself anymore. If I have a "bad" eating day I am not mad at myself. I am in control of my eating and no longer beat myself up. The same urge that made me want to drink, drug, and binge is just no longer there.

I am in control of my life! I make good choices and surround myself with positive people.

I am Jewish and Rosh Hashanah (Jewish new year) starts tomorrow night and what a wonderful new year I and my family will have!

aeo1313

Oh- and I'm doing another mud run today!!

Sapling

Good job aeo!!....Have a great run!!

EternalQ

AEO: I really enjoyed your post! Thank you for posting it. It made me feel really good! : )

aeo1313

After the run there were beer tents and we each had free beer coupons. I gave mine to my husband.

Last night I commented to him how it didn't bother me at all that I wasn't drinking (people had come over before the run to drink as well). It was just a NON ISSUE!! There were no arguments in my head about it, nothing!!! just freedom!!! I love this!!!

Change4good

L'Shanah Tovah.

Love your posts, and so happy to hear that things are going well.

Mizzuno

Rock on aeo! Good job. I love the positive.

Vall

Dear aeo1313,

you sound a really positive person, full of life, full of sobriety, full of fun.

I enjoy reading your posts immensely.

aeo1313

One of my supervisors at work said this to me a few weeks ago- how I was such a positive person. I have never thought this of myself, and after thinking about it I decided I am- at least at work! Of course I can be down and negative, but I am trying my hardest to let positivity have a bigger % of my life. Her saying that to me was the best compliment ever...it meant so much to me.

Living negatively takes up so much wasted energy- gossiping, being angry, resentful, etc is such a time and energy suck. I never thought I could be who I am today. Still a lot of things I need to work on, but I am pretty happy with me and know I have the power to change what I want to change.

Dee74

great post aeo - thank you
I'm so glad things are going well for you

D

SoberForMySon

You're awesome!!!!!

clight

aeo what a motivating post. Thank you for another day to STAY SOBER!

NoFireWater

Aeo, we never get sick of hearing positive upbeat news! Keep posting

You are doing great, and it's gratifying to hear that our efforts do pay off! Glad you are doing so well!

Grace2

That was a very heart warming post and I enjoyed reading it. Thanks for sharing. I can't wait to get where you are!

Big hugs

GXX