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Originally Posted by Hevyn 
Congratulations on your enlightenment, Lost. Very interesting post - glad you shared. Amazing how your AA group grew on you. 
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Originally Posted by DisplacedGRITS
i love it, Lost! i too remember going to AA meetings thinking "OMG! i have nothing in common with these bums! who are these people?" now, when i make the drive back to my home group (an hour north) i get hugs and smiles all around. people i love to see, people i know to be careful hugging (bone crackers i call em), people who still give me little cards with AA sayings even though i've got a million of them! friends all. thanks for the inspiration to go back and revisit the earlier times.
i read my old ones from time to time. i was drinking in several of them. the panic and fear in them is so sad. it's like i'm not the same person. i haven't felt fear like that since i sobered up. to think, i lived like that on a daily basis!
i read my old ones from time to time. i was drinking in several of them. the panic and fear in them is so sad. it's like i'm not the same person. i haven't felt fear like that since i sobered up. to think, i lived like that on a daily basis!
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Ok now I do know everything 
Do an advanced search for posts made by you, but in 'Sort Results by', choose 'Last Posting Date' and in Ascending Order (instead of the default in Descending Order).
This will show you your first 500 posts
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Do an advanced search for posts made by you, but in 'Sort Results by', choose 'Last Posting Date' and in Ascending Order (instead of the default in Descending Order).
This will show you your first 500 posts
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Wow. Well, I still start out in March, 2009. But I found some gems:
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12/29/2011
Update all,
I've continued my struggle with drinking, attempts at moderation are a big fail. I realize that my worrying about vacay and quitting are all part of my alcoholism. For the first time ever, I can visualize holidays, birthdays, etc without alcohol. Because envisioning them with alcohol is terrible. I miss so many things I used to do when sober.
I'm finally there, done. Sick and tired of being sick and tired. I've been formulating a plan over the last few weeks. I picked a date, Jan. 1, 2012. A new year, new me. I'm not even going to say "hopefully" because this time I am deadset on it. I'm drinking now, and it's almost like taking medicine. Not something I really enjoy, no purpose. Seriously guys, I'm done.
I've accepted that I won't stop with just one drink, I'm not like others who can sip on just one. I just go and go and stop right up to the point of where I might get sick. I wake up hungover and then go to work, only at about 50% of my potential I know.
My DH is on board, he's always been supportive of me quitting. Sometime early Jan 1, he will remove all alcohol from the house. It will be done when I'm not around and can't see it being done. While I'm not a fan, I've booked the first week with various AA mtgs near my work and home.
I'm not going to try to conquer the world but this time around I'm going to give it my all. Planning is my way of ensuring success. I feel lost without a plan.
I've also been reading "How to Quit Drinking Without AA". It's not that it's anti-AA as the title may sound - but it provides very hands on ways of quitting. Checklists, worksheets - all extremely helpful to me and my plan.
Wish me luck.
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12/29/2011
Update all,
I've continued my struggle with drinking, attempts at moderation are a big fail. I realize that my worrying about vacay and quitting are all part of my alcoholism. For the first time ever, I can visualize holidays, birthdays, etc without alcohol. Because envisioning them with alcohol is terrible. I miss so many things I used to do when sober.
I'm finally there, done. Sick and tired of being sick and tired. I've been formulating a plan over the last few weeks. I picked a date, Jan. 1, 2012. A new year, new me. I'm not even going to say "hopefully" because this time I am deadset on it. I'm drinking now, and it's almost like taking medicine. Not something I really enjoy, no purpose. Seriously guys, I'm done.
I've accepted that I won't stop with just one drink, I'm not like others who can sip on just one. I just go and go and stop right up to the point of where I might get sick. I wake up hungover and then go to work, only at about 50% of my potential I know.
My DH is on board, he's always been supportive of me quitting. Sometime early Jan 1, he will remove all alcohol from the house. It will be done when I'm not around and can't see it being done. While I'm not a fan, I've booked the first week with various AA mtgs near my work and home.
I'm not going to try to conquer the world but this time around I'm going to give it my all. Planning is my way of ensuring success. I feel lost without a plan.
I've also been reading "How to Quit Drinking Without AA". It's not that it's anti-AA as the title may sound - but it provides very hands on ways of quitting. Checklists, worksheets - all extremely helpful to me and my plan.
Wish me luck.
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Notice the red text - it was a total, absolute falacy. I drank so much, I was dry heaving the next day, my first sober day. I couldn't even leave the house. It was really BAD. It was an all night binge-fest for me, not for my husband of course cuz he's normal.
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12/29/2011
My husband is a natural non-drinker. We have tickets to dinner and a show, so I doubt it'll be an all night binge-fest. I will be drinking though, and he will be driving.
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12/29/2011
My husband is a natural non-drinker. We have tickets to dinner and a show, so I doubt it'll be an all night binge-fest. I will be drinking though, and he will be driving.
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