Inventory of Insanity
I'm a nurse and I would stop at the store on the way home from work to get a bottle of vodka every day. I'd tell myself if anyone asks, I'm buying it for my alcoholic home care patient. I guess that was me!
I think we were/are just trying to get by, just not so good at it. I'm still nervous in a grocery store and I'm one block from a casino. Nevada is a hell of a state to be recovering. But what place isn't. Still great to have SR
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Hmm yes insanity... I have all the supplements outlined in a fairly good book on the damage and initial recovery supplements I will need and yet off I go , give me vitamin V and R....buy all this great food and cook it for the family and not eat a thing......really insane...of course when the binges was over and I could keep down anything lest it come out the back end , those supplements and food come in handy....now its no option , take the dam supplements and leave the vodka and rum and anything else behind...
Thankfully they do nto sell any alcohol in the grocery stores here its either government stores or special licensed stores. Yup they are there and so nice to walk by ...instead of walking in and seeing the guy behind the counter bag up the usual.
Thankfully they do nto sell any alcohol in the grocery stores here its either government stores or special licensed stores. Yup they are there and so nice to walk by ...instead of walking in and seeing the guy behind the counter bag up the usual.
And when it switched to vodka, it wasn't so easy. And I would think that I was caring for an alcoholic family member. And there would always be a moment where I wanted the salesperson to feel bad for ME - the caregiver me. Taking the fantasy to a whole different level.
It is so bizarre how my mind - so smart normally - could run me around in circles when it came to my own damn life.
I was at the store today buying some stuff and didn't no how not to feel guilty Like my alcoholic world revolved around me. When do we get over ourselves? Going to watch a movie tonight and remember it.
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