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Old 09-13-2012, 08:35 AM
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I'm a nurse and I would stop at the store on the way home from work to get a bottle of vodka every day. I'd tell myself if anyone asks, I'm buying it for my alcoholic home care patient. I guess that was me!
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Old 09-13-2012, 09:17 AM
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I think we were/are just trying to get by, just not so good at it. I'm still nervous in a grocery store and I'm one block from a casino. Nevada is a hell of a state to be recovering. But what place isn't. Still great to have SR
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Old 09-13-2012, 09:28 AM
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Hmm yes insanity... I have all the supplements outlined in a fairly good book on the damage and initial recovery supplements I will need and yet off I go , give me vitamin V and R....buy all this great food and cook it for the family and not eat a thing......really insane...of course when the binges was over and I could keep down anything lest it come out the back end , those supplements and food come in handy....now its no option , take the dam supplements and leave the vodka and rum and anything else behind...

Thankfully they do nto sell any alcohol in the grocery stores here its either government stores or special licensed stores. Yup they are there and so nice to walk by ...instead of walking in and seeing the guy behind the counter bag up the usual.
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Old 09-13-2012, 09:38 AM
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I'm a nurse and I would stop at the store on the way home from work to get a bottle of vodka every day. I'd tell myself if anyone asks, I'm buying it for my alcoholic home care patient. I guess that was me!
Oh my gosh, I would do the same thing and I would think the same thing! I used to buy wine, and I would always think in that moment of buying that I was cooking with it. So the salesperson wouldn't judge me. I would buy something at the grocery store every day that I could cook with wine. I would have the bag in my hand. But I never did cook with wine.

And when it switched to vodka, it wasn't so easy. And I would think that I was caring for an alcoholic family member. And there would always be a moment where I wanted the salesperson to feel bad for ME - the caregiver me. Taking the fantasy to a whole different level.

It is so bizarre how my mind - so smart normally - could run me around in circles when it came to my own damn life.
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Old 09-13-2012, 10:02 AM
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On my second beer run each day, I would roll my eyes and say I was sick of going to the store for my drunk husband. Wow, I lied. I suck!
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Old 09-14-2012, 03:20 PM
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I was at the store today buying some stuff and didn't no how not to feel guilty Like my alcoholic world revolved around me. When do we get over ourselves? Going to watch a movie tonight and remember it.
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