gonna make it a happy day
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gonna make it a happy day
Today is Sept 5th the day my son was born on sept the 9th i lost him. I was in a car accident when i was 38wks pregnant. i havebt been sober on this day in 14 yrs. my feelings are all over the place. i feel sad feel like i just want to drink the day away so i dont have to feel all the pain and hurt that i feel. But this year is gonna be different god willing. I need to cry and get the feelings i have to service cause the pain i hold in about this is not gonna do me any good i asume. I knew when the day was coming i would need to have plans and they feel through so im gonna be alone with my thoughts most of the day. ive prayed and ask my HP to hold my hand and walk me through the day only i can save me and i need help to do this any comments will be truely app ty for all ur support
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I'm so sorry for your loss. I would suggest that if you are not a member-you should consider Alcoholics Anonymous.. When I have bad days, those sad dates that hurt our heart or just need more support-I run to meetings and I will find more than one if I have too. Get as many phone numbers as possible-then when you have a bad day-you call them, then over time, you find your friends among them and life gets better. And in the AA program it's good to get a sponsor. I hope you find peace today *Hugs*
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I am so very sorry for your loss.
And, I am so glad that you have a plan to get through this anniversary.
You will be honoring your son's memory by the spending the day sober. Listen to some music, cry some tears, write your feelings, and keep checking in here.
And, I am so glad that you have a plan to get through this anniversary.
You will be honoring your son's memory by the spending the day sober. Listen to some music, cry some tears, write your feelings, and keep checking in here.
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JessD I'm so sorry for your heartbreaking loss. Sometimes life is so unfair. Maybe you can do something to honor your son today-plant a tree, or write him a letter, or something symbolic. I think it's impressive you are planning to experience the day with a clear head and loving heart.
I always find Part of the Plan by Dan Fogelberg to be soothing to listen to...
Part of the Plan Lyrics:
I have these moments
All steady and strong
I’m feeling so holy and humble
The next thing I know
I’m all worried and weak
And I feel myself
Starting to crumble.
The meanings get lost
And the teachings get tossed
And you don’t know what you’re
Going to do next.
You wait for the sun
But it never quite comes
Some kind of message comes
Through to you.
Some kind of message comes through.
And it says to you...
Chorus
Love when you can
Cry when you have to...
Be who you must
That’s a part of the plan
Await your arrival
With simple survival
And one day we’ll all understand...
I always find Part of the Plan by Dan Fogelberg to be soothing to listen to...
Part of the Plan Lyrics:
I have these moments
All steady and strong
I’m feeling so holy and humble
The next thing I know
I’m all worried and weak
And I feel myself
Starting to crumble.
The meanings get lost
And the teachings get tossed
And you don’t know what you’re
Going to do next.
You wait for the sun
But it never quite comes
Some kind of message comes
Through to you.
Some kind of message comes through.
And it says to you...
Chorus
Love when you can
Cry when you have to...
Be who you must
That’s a part of the plan
Await your arrival
With simple survival
And one day we’ll all understand...
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jessd,
I am so sorry for you are going through this...year after year. I can not imagine how you must feel. Stay sober as an honor to your son. He wouldn't want to be the reason you drank.
Much love to you.
I am so sorry for you are going through this...year after year. I can not imagine how you must feel. Stay sober as an honor to your son. He wouldn't want to be the reason you drank.
Much love to you.
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Join Date: Sep 2011
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My deepest condolences Jessd. I am new to this recovery biz, but I do know I also drowned out all those emotions I should have faced sober. Stay sober, deal with these emotions and thoughts one at a time. Just know in an accident there is nothing you could have done. Best wishes.
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