So far...so GREAT!
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So far...so GREAT!
I'm only in my fifth day of sobriety. But, geez I feel good! 
I had two meetings with my therapist who specializes in CBT and we've worked out a few strategies for the next few weeks. Just basics things....meditation, healthy diet and daily walks in the woods by my house with my dogs. I'm going to be seeing him twice a week and I have a reading list of 15 books to get through. I'm also starting SMART next week.
Yesterday, I had the most profound realization ever for me as related to my drinking. I can't drink, not EVER. It really sunk in. And even better.....I just don't want to! I'm really done! It was absolutely empowering. It has always been a choice....I just kept making excuses that somehow I needed to keep alcohol in my life. And why would I let one destructive little thing rule my thoughts and emotions ALL the time?*
I had a similar experience when I quite smoking. I just got so disgusted that those little demons had so much control over me, that I just quit. Cold turkey after a 30 year pack a day habit. And I never looked back....
I'm not stupid. I know things are going to come up that challenge my sobriety down the road. And I have a long road ahead.....but I really feel great!
I had two meetings with my therapist who specializes in CBT and we've worked out a few strategies for the next few weeks. Just basics things....meditation, healthy diet and daily walks in the woods by my house with my dogs. I'm going to be seeing him twice a week and I have a reading list of 15 books to get through. I'm also starting SMART next week.
Yesterday, I had the most profound realization ever for me as related to my drinking. I can't drink, not EVER. It really sunk in. And even better.....I just don't want to! I'm really done!
It was absolutely empowering. It has always been a choice....I just kept making excuses that somehow I needed to keep alcohol in my life. And why would I let one destructive little thing rule my thoughts and emotions ALL the time?*I had a similar experience when I quite smoking. I just got so disgusted that those little demons had so much control over me, that I just quit. Cold turkey after a 30 year pack a day habit. And I never looked back....
I'm not stupid. I know things are going to come up that challenge my sobriety down the road. And I have a long road ahead.....but I really feel great!
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Originally Posted by MissLou 
Yesterday, I had the most profound realization ever for me as related to my drinking. I can't drink, not EVER. It really sunk in.
I got it around day 90, and it was pivotal for me. Like a giant weight coming off of me because in the back of my mind I think I was entertaining the thought..."Well, maybe one day I can drink."
No! Never!
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Originally Posted by doggonecarl
You got that on day number 5? Well good for you!
I got it around day 90, and it was pivotal for me. Like a giant weight coming off of me because in the back of my mind I think I was entertaining the thought..."Well, maybe one day I can drink."
No! Never!
I got it around day 90, and it was pivotal for me. Like a giant weight coming off of me because in the back of my mind I think I was entertaining the thought..."Well, maybe one day I can drink."
No! Never!
I've had 6 months before and never "got" it. I have really decreased my drinking over the years. But I was starting to see I was losing control again and I wasn't going back....
But now I know I simply don't want to waste one more minute letting drinking run my life
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I'm seriously feeling this incredible sense of relief and happiness. Because instead of saying "I'm not going to drink today" I *know* I don't have to drink ever again.
By making this very simple ( but yet incredibly difficult to comprehend ) decision, I have solved the problem for myself, forever. I just have to do the work, everyday. When I was sober before I just didn't get it. I was so busy missing the point and feeling deprived that I was making it one thousand times more difficult!
By making this very simple ( but yet incredibly difficult to comprehend ) decision, I have solved the problem for myself, forever. I just have to do the work, everyday. When I was sober before I just didn't get it. I was so busy missing the point and feeling deprived that I was making it one thousand times more difficult!
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Originally Posted by MissLou
I'm seriously feeling this incredible sense of relief and happiness. Because instead of saying "I'm not going to drink today" I *know* I don't have to drink ever again. By making this very simple ( but yet incredibly difficult to comprehend ) decision, I have solved the problem for myself, forever.
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