8 months today
8 months today
And I'm sooooo glad to be sober.
I volunteered at a film society event last night. The ticket included free drinks. My job was to make sure people didn't leave the beer garden with a drink in their hand. Ironic huh?
Anyway, all the drinking didn't really bother me. It was the people who began to bug me, but by then it was 9:30 and I was ready to go. It was at an old amusement park and that part was really fun. I'm so glad I volunteered. Not all their events are booze filled so I'll be volunteering again.
Where I'm at: I feel like I've come a looooong way. My personal and social life is wonderful. I'm so happy with it. My work life SUCKS.
I'm agonizing over whether I should stay at my job and try to make it work, or whether I should go. I'm not sure whether me leaving my job is the equivalent of me running (which is something I would have done when drinking).
I acknowledge some of the things I've been criticized over. But other issues I completely disagree with, feel I'm being singled out. The other part of me thinks this is an issue of survival, and I want to maintain my already good career path.
So I don't want to stick around and have my career, and day to day life at work get worse, and I don't want to up and quit. hmph.
Anyway, I'm sober and that's amazing. Life is great on this side. I don't know what I was doing on the other side, why I rationalized it so much, why I struggled with just putting down the drink! I held onto it for dear life, couldn't imagine life without it. Now, that seems like a ridiculous notion.
Thanks SR and all you guys out there supporting me. I love you all.
I volunteered at a film society event last night. The ticket included free drinks. My job was to make sure people didn't leave the beer garden with a drink in their hand. Ironic huh?
Anyway, all the drinking didn't really bother me. It was the people who began to bug me, but by then it was 9:30 and I was ready to go. It was at an old amusement park and that part was really fun. I'm so glad I volunteered. Not all their events are booze filled so I'll be volunteering again.
Where I'm at: I feel like I've come a looooong way. My personal and social life is wonderful. I'm so happy with it. My work life SUCKS.
I'm agonizing over whether I should stay at my job and try to make it work, or whether I should go. I'm not sure whether me leaving my job is the equivalent of me running (which is something I would have done when drinking).
I acknowledge some of the things I've been criticized over. But other issues I completely disagree with, feel I'm being singled out. The other part of me thinks this is an issue of survival, and I want to maintain my already good career path.
So I don't want to stick around and have my career, and day to day life at work get worse, and I don't want to up and quit. hmph.
Anyway, I'm sober and that's amazing. Life is great on this side. I don't know what I was doing on the other side, why I rationalized it so much, why I struggled with just putting down the drink! I held onto it for dear life, couldn't imagine life without it. Now, that seems like a ridiculous notion.
Thanks SR and all you guys out there supporting me. I love you all.
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Congrats on 8 months Lost - Today's day and age, you should have a job to go to before you leave the present one. Thing to keep in mind, doesnt' matter which job you're at, including self employed, there are going to be people you like and people you don't. Things you like to do and things you don't.
You can try to change the people and things that you don't like ... somethings successfully but most times it just ends in more frustration. The way I found works is to change how I look at the people and things I don't like. When I can accept that these things have been put in my way as learning experiences I start to feel less frustration. Course, sometimes it takes a while to learn my lesson.
Everything is generally a matter of perspective
You can try to change the people and things that you don't like ... somethings successfully but most times it just ends in more frustration. The way I found works is to change how I look at the people and things I don't like. When I can accept that these things have been put in my way as learning experiences I start to feel less frustration. Course, sometimes it takes a while to learn my lesson.
Everything is generally a matter of perspective
You can try to change the people and things that you don't like ... somethings successfully but most times it just ends in more frustration. The way I found works is to change how I look at the people and things I don't like. When I can accept that these things have been put in my way as learning experiences I start to feel less frustration. Course, sometimes it takes a while to learn my lesson.
Everything is generally a matter of perspective
Everything is generally a matter of perspective
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AA worked so well it got me to retirement... now I just have to put up with myself.
All the best.
Bob R
(The boss worked me and worked me.... never let up on me... kept kicking my a$$ to get more done... screaming, yelling, . Was totally unforgiving and always looking for me to make a mistake.. then pounce on me.
I had no relief... nowhere to run.... I was trapped by a madman.
"Why didn't you leave" asked a buddy...
"I couldn't" I said "I was self employed" .......
All the best.
Bob R
(The boss worked me and worked me.... never let up on me... kept kicking my a$$ to get more done... screaming, yelling, . Was totally unforgiving and always looking for me to make a mistake.. then pounce on me.
I had no relief... nowhere to run.... I was trapped by a madman.
"Why didn't you leave" asked a buddy...
"I couldn't" I said "I was self employed" .......
I held onto it for dear life, couldn't imagine life without it. Now, that seems like a ridiculous notion.
Big congrats on your 8 months!!
Great advice as always. Thanks so much for your support and kind words.
AA worked so well it got me to retirement... now I just have to put up with myself.
All the best.
Bob R
(The boss worked me and worked me.... never let up on me... kept kicking my a$$ to get more done... screaming, yelling, . Was totally unforgiving and always looking for me to make a mistake.. then pounce on me.
I had no relief... nowhere to run.... I was trapped by a madman.
"Why didn't you leave" asked a buddy...
"I couldn't" I said "I was self employed" .......
All the best.
Bob R
(The boss worked me and worked me.... never let up on me... kept kicking my a$$ to get more done... screaming, yelling, . Was totally unforgiving and always looking for me to make a mistake.. then pounce on me.
I had no relief... nowhere to run.... I was trapped by a madman.
"Why didn't you leave" asked a buddy...
"I couldn't" I said "I was self employed" .......
Congrats Lost. You've come a long long way.
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