An old post hit home
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An old post hit home
Do you ever read a post and think that it was written just for you? This morning, I glanced through the headlines and opened, “Slip or Relapse…” It is a 5 year old post that for some reason was reposted this morning. It didn’t just speak to me, it screamed at me.
Yesterday was day 32, but last night I had a drink. It was on purpose. Since I was home alone, and no one would ever know, I decided to make one. It was in a cup the size of a big gulp and could have put out an elephant. It was delicious, so I made a second one. I only made it through half of that one and went to bed early.
This morning I thought that was a bad idea, but I don’t need to tell anyone. I don’t want to lose my 32 days, so I’ll just keep counting. That was until I read the 5 year old thread! So honesty wins. Here I am, posting my fall and admitting to a new day one.
Yesterday was day 32, but last night I had a drink. It was on purpose. Since I was home alone, and no one would ever know, I decided to make one. It was in a cup the size of a big gulp and could have put out an elephant. It was delicious, so I made a second one. I only made it through half of that one and went to bed early.
This morning I thought that was a bad idea, but I don’t need to tell anyone. I don’t want to lose my 32 days, so I’ll just keep counting. That was until I read the 5 year old thread! So honesty wins. Here I am, posting my fall and admitting to a new day one.
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That's very brave of you.
In my mind you lost no days. Those sober were earned. Keep counting and adding newly earned days.
I hope that admitting to your self makes this easier in some way for you. I know you already knew what you did but telling others gives that voice validation.
You are doing great! Keep going from today on as strong as ever.
Day 33 is on the horizon!
All my best to you!
That's very brave of you.
In my mind you lost no days. Those sober were earned. Keep counting and adding newly earned days.
I hope that admitting to your self makes this easier in some way for you. I know you already knew what you did but telling others gives that voice validation.
You are doing great! Keep going from today on as strong as ever.
Day 33 is on the horizon!
All my best to you!
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Originally Posted by benice 
This morning I thought that was a bad idea
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Benice. We never lose our sober days. They are gone. It is great that you opened up here about what happened.
I used to drink and occasionally take over the counter sedatives. I no longer do the sedatives, even thought I have had the idea to from time to time. I am now committed to "taking what comes" and occasionally I find myself saying "I have to embrace it" meaning anything that 'discomforts me'.
Boredom and being at a loose end, and needing a break from oneself can be a bother - have a strategy
I used to drink and occasionally take over the counter sedatives. I no longer do the sedatives, even thought I have had the idea to from time to time. I am now committed to "taking what comes" and occasionally I find myself saying "I have to embrace it" meaning anything that 'discomforts me'.
Boredom and being at a loose end, and needing a break from oneself can be a bother - have a strategy
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Think of it as 32-1 and not 0. Don't forget about the 32 days you were sober and just start all over. This is about your life and your journey in life, not a contest to see who can go the most days in a row without drinking!! So be proud, dust yourself off, and get right back on it. You only fail when you give up!
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