"Its not funny or clever" I remember they words! 29 days of crying in the shower so no one can see me 29 days of feeling lost 29 days of constant thinking and pain 29 days of real emotion, 29 days of hope, 29 days of caring, 29 days without lies, 29 days of helping, 29 days of honesty, 29 days closer to becoming human again. I hope to god or whichever higher power there is that all you people within this site are touched with hope. I sometimes don't think its there but it comes even for 10 mins but in that 10 mins I am free and I know as time moves forward restrictions will pass. I choose to disregard every person that loved me and there was a few cause I knew best! I am not angry but grateful. The all-consuming glaze blankets the eyes Lost Thoughts control this world The devious contamination penetrates Subtle yet beautifully done Uneasy, now anticipation The world sees and chooses to look through as fear whispers to them Make your excuses Soon you will awaken Then what Fear is now within you Where, when, how and why Turmoil of Lies, anger, self-loathing, pain, and resentment your soul has been taken This destruction, cycle or pattern Long may it continue, our choice our rules Why care because we all do, we can disguise this for now although inevitability will surface My pattern has grown strong I am now a hurricane ready to destroy Why, “because I can” They words reassure me The healing power of chemicals Realisation Underneath I am broken and hurting I pray for strength, I get it, it dissolves constant battle This is my perception as I now look in from a distance I am now in control of my thoughts What a tight rope to walk “Pain is for the weak” I beg to differ Pain is because I care Internal battle that needs to be won Peace will set us free |
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