Lost3000

Two very interesting things I heard in today's mtg that really struck a chord with me:

1. I saw doctors, therapists - I'd rather be crazy than diagnosed an alcoholic. I looked everywhere but the obvious. I thought maybe there was some kind of hidden childhood trauma that would explain why I couldn't stop drinking.

2. I instantly felt better if I knew I was going to drink, or when I was on the way to the liquor store. If I had plans to drink, and those plans were changed/removed - I was mad!!! I couldn't take it. I'd have to reformulate plans so that booze was included.

Honestly, getting over step 1 was easy for me when I finally got THERE, but until then, I went round and round the crazy carousel of alcoholism.

Just thought I'd share, in the event it also perks up someone else's ears.

IndaMiricale

Thanks Lost,

No doubt about that crazy carousel, everything revolved around my and me. I , I , I have to have what I want and need. Once that drink was in hand all was "well".

So nice to live today without that overwhelming demon taking all control.

Today I just have to live one of those steps to perfection, and it is that one.

For if I dont the other 11 dont mean anyting.

Stay on the Beam

Good love, Inda

Lost3000

Thanks for writing, love to you too Inda.

bryangt

Not to sound cheesy but..."you once were 'Lost, but now you're found...."

Lost3000

Too funny!! Yeah, sometimes I feel that way. I don't think I'll ever be officially "found" though.

sugarbear1

Read The Doctor's Opinion in the big book....mental obsession....

Lost3000

Sugar, yep, I've read it. In fact, many of us were talking about it just a few hours ago.