aeo1313

90 days clean and sober and feeling good.

I am in AA and have a sponsor, but have been sitting on step 4 for about 1.5 months now. I love the way I feel, but honestly, am sometimes conflicted about not drinking and still wonder if I am really an alcoholic sometimes.

I feel like a different (better) person, yet still have the nagging in my head.

Dominica2

Thats great!!!!! Congrats!

DAB

That's great! Congratulations!
I will have 9 months on Wednesday and I have just started to seriously attempt step 4 yesturday. I only got through resentments, today I am going to try and get through fears, sex conduct, and harms to others.

TorontoGuy28

Congrats !~

LoftyIdeals

aeo...only you can answer whether or not you are really an alcoholic. But, don't let that stop you from completing the steps. You'll learn a lot about yourself whether you conclude you are or not.

Congrats...90 days is awesome. It only keeps getting better from there!

Live2Run25

Congrats. Proud of you! You've come a long way. I think the questioning is normal. I know I do it, and i'm at 2 months on wednesday. However, alcoholic or not, I know that my drinking was destructiver and something I wanted to stop. I feel so much better without.

Anna

Aeo, I hope you continue your recovery. Congratulations on 100 days sober.

doggonecarl

Enjoy your milestone. Don't let doubts creep in.

I have almost two years sober. If I catch myself thinking I'm not an alcoholic, I know it's my addiction trying to rise once more and ruin my happiness.

least

Congrats on your sober time! Keep on keepin' on.

2granddaughters

That pretty well left me about 10-15 yrs into recovery.

All the best.

Bob R

FlyerFan

awwwwwwwwwwwesome!

sugarbear1

Congratulations!!!

Try reading your old posts and read the big book....any correlations?

MrsKing

Congratulations on 90 days, aeo that's wonderful. I am SO pleased for you.

I don't know anything about AA/step 4... but about the nagging - I used to get it, too. Not everyone is the same in this but all I can say is that even if it never fully goes away, the chatty rubbish that your brain feeds you about alcohol does quieten. I think for me, being able to tell myself that I would never drink again and FULLY believing it really helped. Once I'd established that drinking wasn't and never would be an option ever again, I was able to totally ignore those thoughts about drinking and recently I've rarely had them.

Hope you start to feel better soon and congratulations again!

Dee74

Congratulations aeo!

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IndaMiricale

Awesome girl

I and have heard many comments and leads, about that great voice that wants us to think we can handle it. That were not really alcoholics. Get back to step one each and everyday.

desertsong

Ann, I am SO very proud of you. You have come so far in such short period of time. I remember your first posts, and compared to where you are now, you are a totally different person. What an awesome accomplishment. Congrats to you and many, many hugs! Good job, girl!

hypochondriac

Well done Aeo

That nagging is really annoying. Ignoring the anti AA stuff, looking into AVRT might help a little with that. Once I recognised that any thought that supported me drinking was my AV it became easier to dismiss it I had fought with that voice for years and it was so nice to let it go x

NatalieN

Congratulations aeo. I remember you from the April thread. Ninety days is a big deal. I am right behind you. I, too, get those thoughts once in a great while these days and when I do, I tell myself that I, the real me, really doesn't want to drink or deal with the aftermath of that choice. My addiction was to drink and that's fine, but I am not gonna. Thinking along those ways is very helpful to me.

soberbrooke

I still have those thoughts at 7 months - it is normal!!! I pitter patter between if I am an alcoholic or not, and then I tell myself to look at the un-manageability I created in my life!!
I am an ALCOHOLIC!!!

Mark75

Awesome, congrats!!!