Going into Day Seven!
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Going into Day Seven!
As I posted in gratitude, I spent the day at a sales booth in front of a bar. Even though my companion suggested we get a beer (twice) I managed not to. I only tried to talk myself into it four or five times. I even asked my husband when he came to collect me (and my stuff) if he would buy us a beer. He would have but I didn't push it. Breathe.
Then we went to dinner to celebrate a birthday. Drinks were purchased. I had an overpriced lemonade. And now I'm home. Closing down Day Six. Really tired, but so looking forward to a good Sunday.
As I get further into my sobriety (hopefully not just "this round") I am finding my giddiness again. I definitely loved to drink to loosen up and have fun (I'm a serious girl), but it is easy to forget how giddy I can be when sober.
I'm light in my heart and I want to weep because I feel safe in myself.
On the downside, I have had waves of a depression that I recognize and have masked for some time, but they're just waves at this point.
So that's where I'm at. It can be done. But you (I) have to say no to the first drink--not the second.
Then we went to dinner to celebrate a birthday. Drinks were purchased. I had an overpriced lemonade. And now I'm home. Closing down Day Six. Really tired, but so looking forward to a good Sunday.
As I get further into my sobriety (hopefully not just "this round") I am finding my giddiness again. I definitely loved to drink to loosen up and have fun (I'm a serious girl), but it is easy to forget how giddy I can be when sober.
I'm light in my heart and I want to weep because I feel safe in myself.
On the downside, I have had waves of a depression that I recognize and have masked for some time, but they're just waves at this point.
So that's where I'm at. It can be done. But you (I) have to say no to the first drink--not the second.
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Join Date: Jul 2012
Location: Toronto, Canada
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Congratulations!! 7 days is amazing!!
Waves of depression are so normal - I experienced so much depression and anxiety when i stopped numbing out. But then I was so kindly reminded that hey - of course those feelings are there, that is why I'm using! I am scared of those feelings so I kill them.
But I'm learning that those feelings are damn ghosts. When you look them in the face, they disappear.
I love that you're giddy, it's adorable!
Waves of depression are so normal - I experienced so much depression and anxiety when i stopped numbing out. But then I was so kindly reminded that hey - of course those feelings are there, that is why I'm using! I am scared of those feelings so I kill them.
But I'm learning that those feelings are damn ghosts. When you look them in the face, they disappear.
I love that you're giddy, it's adorable!
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Good for you, Missy!
And, I'm thrilled that you feel light-hearted. And, it's good that you are aware you have some feelings of depression. Acknowledging the feelings is a first step to dealing with them.
And, I'm thrilled that you feel light-hearted. And, it's good that you are aware you have some feelings of depression. Acknowledging the feelings is a first step to dealing with them.
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