Great sober day
 

Still feeling the effects of my slip on wednesday and Thursday.

The panick attacks are passed. The head is clear. The heart still aches for my choices. I did my budget and was a bit shocked. Funny how fast a grand can be spent in a week.

But I am happy as hell today. Opptomistic. Ready to face the day and weekend with hope.

Got up early and took my diabetic cat to the vet. Clear headed. Such a sense of relief in a way.

Thank you for the sincere support and Kind words. I realize I need to want this. Not sure I understood what that really means. But with my job on the line and so much more, I do now.

Please everyone spend a sober day today! As soo many say here it is worth it.

Ken

Good for you ken. You sound great! : )

Glad to hear you're back .
Money dosn't mean much to the AV, it will take everything of worth from you eventually, if one indulges it . Things you can afford to loose and things you can't .

Remain mindful of the 27th,

bestwishes, M

Great to hear from you, you sound so much more positive.
Have a peaceful sober weekend Ken xx

I am glad you are feeling better. F***ing Awesome!!!!!!

So glad you are feeling optimistic, it's a wonderful feeling not to be beating yourself up all the time! The most important thing is to know that we are WORTH staying sober for ourselves, sounds like you are on your way to an awesome recovery!! :)

Good news, that is, Ken. I am relieved to hear it.

Hope your cat is feeling ok!

Thanks everyone.

I have to say nothing has changed specifically with the outside world. I feel the need to be around people. I feel the pull of drinking. I feel very much the same way I did the before the sh!t hit the fan Wednesday.

Oh wait.... There is one thing.... Me. I changed. I cannot accept what that has to offer me today. I will remain mindful Of the 27th. I always want to remember that.

The day after, my motor skills are severely impacted recently. I could not even walk down the corridor at work. The panic of not being able to get up if someone needed my attention at their desk. I was flat out scared.

I want to always remember than and never never want to experience that fear again.

Will be around here all day. Doing other things other than drinking.

Bloss... They had to keep him a few hours for tests... And to gather "specimens" (poop)... So I expect to get a cranky cat back when I go get him in a few.

whats your plan now to stay this way Ken? :)

D