justhadenough

I'm on day 27 and just reflecting on how much free time I now have now I don't have to think about and make the effort to do the following

1.Remember to buy wine (not that I would ever have forgotten)
2.Make sure I buy enough wine,just in case I run out
3.Clockwatch till when I can go home to start drinking
4.Make sure I don't drink too much too soon so I'm too ill in the morning(Yes right)
5.Check time when having each glass to ensure 5.doesn't happen
6.Make sure I have enough painkillers in for morning
7. Try and drink lots of water before bed to prevent said hangover
8.hope and pray DS doesn't wake in the night
9.Get up in morning,spend so much effort trying to feel better
10.and.....repeat,as above

Almost like a military operation.Feel like I have more freedom now

MsJax

It really is freeing, isn't it? I obsessed about booze 24/7. It especially took a lot of planning if I was going to have to be in a situation that didn't involve alcohol. How to have enough in my system but not too much, having enough in my purse & how to get to it. How to drink at work. Making sure I didn't get completely out of control until I was home. Hoping no one realized exactly how loaded I was. What a mess. God, I'm thankful that's over.

justhadenough

YesYesYes

It's like many things I suppose-you don't realize how restrictive and damaging it is until you have removed yourself from it

debsam

JHE,

Isn't it just insane?...and for what?

You're having some great revelations 27 days in. I could probably add a load of other things to your already exhausting list.

justhadenough

HiDebsam

Please do add more to it,and other posters too.

The more we have the more futile the whole thing seems and we can refer back to it if we want to drink

Anna

I agree, the mental obsession can be exhausting.

debsam

I typed this out and lost it for some reason, so here goes again

11. Making sure Tylenol is beside to avoid having to get out of bed in the middle of the night...because that might make me too "awake" and interrupt the sleep I think I'm getting to stave off the hangover

12. "graduating" from glass bottles to disposable because, well, they are easier to dispose of (less noise)

13. Waking with immediate anxiety the moment I opened my eyes thinking "how am I going to get out of these plans I made for later"

14. Making sure, I had on hand, every possible over the counter or home remedy hangover cure known to man ie. pepto bismal, alkaseltzer, gravol, vitamin drinks, you get the picture

15. Debating whether or not I was physically and mentally capable of handling a shower!!!

Did I mention that I am missing NONE of this craziness!!!!

justhadenough

16.Hoping no one visits unannounced as they will either

a)think me bad for drinking early
b)annoy me by being there,preventing me from drinking early

freshstart57

Returning empty bottles, I just hated returning empties. I think my record was about $50 worth of 40 oz Smirnoff bottles. Before you think I had a drinking problem, let me point out that there were some wine, scotch and beer bottles there too.