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Join Date: Mar 2011
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New to recovery
Today is the first day (again) on my path to recovery. I am 40 years old and have reached the point in my life where daily drinking,to quash boredom and get rid of that keyed up feeling, is not working for me. While I have a good job and good relationship, I have been completely disconnected from it all for the last three years. I have had a few brief periods of quitting, a month there or three weeks there, but for the most part I have completely depended on alcohol to fill my down time, resulting in scary blackouts and horrible day long hangovers. I am hoping that being part of group, even on-line, will help me get reconnected and have some sense of accountability. Those brief periods of time where I have quit have felt wonderful--especially feeling awake. My weakness, as far as I can tell, is overconfidence and the belief that I can dabble in joys of intoxication without eventually killing myself--despite all evidence to the contrary, including a family background of lethal alcoholism.
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Join Date: Mar 2009
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Hi bobocat, welcome to SR this is a great place-- sounds to me like you need a plan of action and something different that what you've done in the past. There's lots of information on this site and people to chat with 24/7.
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Join Date: Apr 2010
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Hi bobcat - Glad you've decided to get sober. My hangovers got really bad too and there were days when I drank just to get over the day before. I got sober when I joined this forum and haven't looked back since.
Keep posting/reading!
Keep posting/reading!
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Join Date: Jun 2012
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Hi Bobcat
I had not idea you joined SR because of your drinking??? you are so young too!!! You make me laugh when you refer to me as 'young Lara'. My father started drinking seriously from the age of 40. He always drank. But 'not the serious stuff'. He drank beer. Isn't it frightening how society peceives beer as okay to drink. Talk about lulling one into a false sense of security. Dad started to drink whisky from about 40 and it was down hill from there. He went from a gorgous fit, strong, tanned, blue eyed 'Boy' (my dad even had a 'six pack' as stomach muscles) to dead in my arms aged 51! We, as a family, did not seem to have a clue about alcohol abuse. We were all too young, but my mum just refused to acknowledge the problem - and would not listen to any advice to 'throw dad out'.
You don't seem that bad though? How is it going?
I really admire you and wish you all the very very best.
Boredom is a killer and so is depression. I am not excusing my dad's drinking - but he suffered from huge depression, post traumatic stress syndrome and boredom - and I truly believe if the right therapy had been available - combined with AA - dad would be here today.
I miss him everyday - your children are very lucky to have you!!!!
God bless
I had not idea you joined SR because of your drinking??? you are so young too!!! You make me laugh when you refer to me as 'young Lara'. My father started drinking seriously from the age of 40. He always drank. But 'not the serious stuff'. He drank beer. Isn't it frightening how society peceives beer as okay to drink. Talk about lulling one into a false sense of security. Dad started to drink whisky from about 40 and it was down hill from there. He went from a gorgous fit, strong, tanned, blue eyed 'Boy' (my dad even had a 'six pack' as stomach muscles) to dead in my arms aged 51! We, as a family, did not seem to have a clue about alcohol abuse. We were all too young, but my mum just refused to acknowledge the problem - and would not listen to any advice to 'throw dad out'.
You don't seem that bad though? How is it going?
I really admire you and wish you all the very very best.
Boredom is a killer and so is depression. I am not excusing my dad's drinking - but he suffered from huge depression, post traumatic stress syndrome and boredom - and I truly believe if the right therapy had been available - combined with AA - dad would be here today.
I miss him everyday - your children are very lucky to have you!!!!
God bless
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