Today I start the journey...
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Today I start the journey...
It's nearly midnight where I am now, and I have almost completed my first day of sobriety. Today also marks six months since I have had a cigarette, so I know that I have the willpower to make another positive life decision now.
I have had a troubled history with alcohol. As a child, I lived with an abusive and alcoholic step-father. I somehow made it through that hell, and I even got through graduate school and landed a great job. For a long time, I thought that I would be okay. But things aren't okay... I know that drinking has hurt just about every area of my life. Every night of drinking only makes the situation more overwhelming and my life more intolerable.
Today I am so glad to have made the decision to take my life back. Truly, it's so freeing just typing those words! I long forward to walking in this journey with new friends here.
To life and sobriety!
~blueshades
I have had a troubled history with alcohol. As a child, I lived with an abusive and alcoholic step-father. I somehow made it through that hell, and I even got through graduate school and landed a great job. For a long time, I thought that I would be okay. But things aren't okay... I know that drinking has hurt just about every area of my life. Every night of drinking only makes the situation more overwhelming and my life more intolerable.
Today I am so glad to have made the decision to take my life back. Truly, it's so freeing just typing those words! I long forward to walking in this journey with new friends here.
To life and sobriety!
~blueshades
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I personally was one of those people that had to lose it all, 3 dui's, cars, home, jobs, and worst of all my health. We all get here on our own path, but all feel just the same.
But I slowly gained everything and so much more back.
Look forward to reading and watching your journey.
But I slowly gained everything and so much more back.
Look forward to reading and watching your journey.
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Thanks for sharing, Inda. My losses have been internal. My life has become a living hell of shame, paranoia, martyrdom, etc. I have isolated myself and used booze to deal with the stress that comes naturally from dealing with other people. Maybe the worst thing has been denying my true nature: not using my talents for good, not taking care of myself, not being thankful for all that I really have... My alcohol use is not at the center of all of this, but it's my 400-pound elephant. I feel that I have to get this right to get started on the rest. I'm finally ready to get started.
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Welcome Blueshades, great to have you with us. I reached that point when I knew things had to change for me, and it is a new and exciting phase.
I'm 9 weeks sober today and don't regret making that decision. I'm learning so much about myself and everything is just getting so much better. I look forward to sharing your journey with you x
I'm 9 weeks sober today and don't regret making that decision. I'm learning so much about myself and everything is just getting so much better. I look forward to sharing your journey with you x
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Welcome Blueshades and great job yesterday!
I am new here too. I am beginning Sober Day 2. My losses have all been internal too and I too struggle with shame denying my true nature and taking care of myself. I have recently started re-claiming my creative life and trying to care for myself more. Losing the booze though, that's been what I have been avoiding up until yesterday. I am glad we are all here to help each other along on this difficult road ahead.
I am new here too. I am beginning Sober Day 2. My losses have all been internal too and I too struggle with shame denying my true nature and taking care of myself. I have recently started re-claiming my creative life and trying to care for myself more. Losing the booze though, that's been what I have been avoiding up until yesterday. I am glad we are all here to help each other along on this difficult road ahead.
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Welcome to SR and congratulations on your first day. Making the decision to be sober was probably the best thing I've ever done. SR is a great place to find support and understanding... we're all behind you every step of the way. I wish you all the best on your sober journey.
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Originally Posted by soulgypsy 
Welcome Blueshades and great job yesterday!
I am new here too. I am beginning Sober Day 2. My losses have all been internal too and I too struggle with shame denying my true nature and taking care of myself. I have recently started re-claiming my creative life and trying to care for myself more. Losing the booze though, that's been what I have been avoiding up until yesterday. I am glad we are all here to help each other along on this difficult road ahead.
I am new here too. I am beginning Sober Day 2. My losses have all been internal too and I too struggle with shame denying my true nature and taking care of myself. I have recently started re-claiming my creative life and trying to care for myself more. Losing the booze though, that's been what I have been avoiding up until yesterday. I am glad we are all here to help each other along on this difficult road ahead.
I still had put off putting down the bottle - - until now. Day Two is only just beginning. I am determined to make this change.
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Great job your doing so far blue shades! This place is a wealth of information and never ending support, im only on day 4, but its so much easier having this place to turn to . Great to see some other newcomers facing the same journey, i'll be looking out for you :ghug3
. Great to see some other newcomers facing the same journey, i'll be looking out for you :ghug3
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Originally Posted by blueshades
Reclaiming the creative is a life choice that I have already started to embrace. I realized at the end of last year how far I had fallen with depression and decided then and there to start singing again. I've since dedicated myself to other affirming creative work.
I still had put off putting down the bottle - - until now. Day Two is only just beginning. I am determined to make this change.
I still had put off putting down the bottle - - until now. Day Two is only just beginning. I am determined to make this change.
Glad you're through Day Two--I'm almost there. Keep up the determination!
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