Dominica2

Today is day 12. Got a new job today. Yet the urge to drink is insane. I can literally taste it. I don't know why. I know it is all mental. I hate feeling like this. Thanks.

Dom

SDSurfn

It's the all too familiar mental obsession.

I know exactly what it feels like.

This time, I'm using the program and fellowship of AA to help me when it gets too strong.

I also use SR. Read and post till it passes. Because it will pass.

Most of all, take it easy on yourself. You've been through more than I can imagine.

You deserve sobriety, remember that Dom!

IndaMiricale

Indeed those good things that happen early really can bring out that voice that says celebrate with me. That is the old voice that has been with us thew thick and thin for so long. It takes a long time for it to fade, but stick with a program. Work it.

For me, I many times got to well to fast as we say in AA. I am a positive person with the ability to forget the past very quickly, so by the month or two months I felt great and the disease could talk me into just drink and have fun tonight you can handle it. Which of course couldnt be a bigger lie.

So today I work my tools , call people, journal,meditate,and meetings meeting meeetings for me. When I am happy,sad,upset,bored, all the emotions when I drank I know do something fun constructive and always makes me feel better.

Congrats on the job, you can stay free.

DisplacedGRITS

Hey Dom. Glad you're here. The stress of a new job can be a major trigger. Be sure to do something nice for yourself today. Get yourself a special treat today. You don't need alcohol to relax or take your mind off stress. Get that treat, indulge and experience the hell out of it. If it's an ice cream sundae, close your eyes while you eat it and roll the ice cream and chocolate around in your mouth. Taste the vanilla, the chocolate, the rich whipped cream. Enjoy the crunch of the peanuts, the sweet cherry. Live in that experience. Way better than alcohol and no hangover! Might even kill that alcohol taste in your mouth.

Crap...i want a sundae now.

Dee74

You've had a rough time recently Dom.

Use all the support you have - I know you find it hard to make time for meetings, but I'd really try....leave no stone unturned...don't let your addiction win.

This will pass

congratulations on your new job

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Notmyrealname

Congrats on the new job

I try not to think about that first drink and the five minutes afterwards. I think about the twenty-two hour period that starts two hours after that first drink. Sort of kills it for me.

Then I go eat or jog or drink a half-gallon of water while reading posts on SR When you quit drinking you pretty much get carte blanche to eat all sorts of awful crap for at least a month. Enjoy it!

neferkamichael

Domonica, 12 days? You are FANTASTIC. Congratulations. Dominica you have taken away from your body a chemical substance that it needed to maintain its equirlibium. Your body is calling for it. But as time goes by a new equirlibrium will be put in place and the urges will deminish. Unfortunately it doesn't happen overnite. You're right though, it is insane.

Zee

Congratulations on your new job Dom!!!

Forget about the wet stuff today, unless its (insert non alcoholic beverage here) x

2granddaughters

Congrats on the new job, Dom.

Dom, today I celebrate 23 yrs at my Home Group. I was at a meeting this morning with 2-38 yrs oldtimers and a 35yr.
We are all in agreement that we have a "daily reprieve" and it keeps getting better over time.

I hate it when the disease kicks in as well ....

I wish you the best.

Bob R

Anna

Dom, starting a new job is stressful for anyone, so try to hang in there.

Good luck with the new job.

Gerbosko

Congratulations on the new job! Times are tough and they are NOT easy to find. Celebrate finding a job by going out to a nice dinner with your husband, or stay home and have a nice dinner. Find different ways to celebrate success and you'll find it easier to get past the hard first few weeks.

Drinking alcohol wouldn't accomplish a single thing, plus why would you celebrate success by poisoning your body? quite contradictory, isn't it? .

*hugs*

skeletoncrue

It IS mental!

Tell that urge to take a hike!

Play the tape through to the end.

Don't let IT remind you of the taste of the drink.

Replace that with YOUR memory of the taste in your mouth the morning after.

Yuck!

I have NEVER drank and been glad that I did.

Stay strong and it WILL get better.

katiedid722

LOVE THIS!! Hello again Dom!

bloss

Two days of urges to drink for me too,

glad you didn't. By reading these posts it helped me

not to give in to the beast! Have to say it was difficult

So happy you are here!

artsoul

I agree with the others - everyone is nervous starting a new job. I always wanted to binge the day before I had to do something important, which is probably the worst time.

Think about how it would be trying to meet people and learn new things feeling sick and hungover. Don't give in Dom!

skeletoncrue

Keep kicking its butt!

NO MERCY!

Dominica2

Thank you for all the encouragement! I am not going to give in. Tomorrow will be 2 weeks sober. Thats a long time for me! I like feeling well rested, being able to drink coffee and spending time with my family and actually remembering it. This seems like it's going to be a pretty gravy job. Just have to get out of bartender mode and do what I do best, talk to people. I know I can fight off the urges, I just hate having them.

Bloss, congrats! we are in it to win it!

2granddaughters

All the best, Dom.

Bob R

MetalChick

Wow, really great post!

This is kind of gross, but I can add the feeling of how it tastes coming back up- yuk

Dom, thanks for your thread. You may not realize how much you are helping others that are going through this with your honest sincere posts I know it helps me a lot. Thank you.
Congrats on the job, and on 2 weeks!

Dominica2

Thanks Metal! I am glad you are doing well!