visiting dying mother in oregon
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visiting dying mother in oregon
I have been in Oregon visiting my mom since Tuesday.
So many thoughts and emotions in my head. I thought I was going to have a nervous breakdown yesterday but didn't, thank God. I felt like leaving and flying home yesterday. How selfish is that?!
I have not visited in years, seen her in two, so guilt is way up there. I feel better today. My husband and I are taking a day together and spending it at the Columbia river gorge today.
Pushing her in a wheel chair yesterday was surreal. I am praying and calling my sponsor, doing readings. Using my tools. Getting drunk is not an option.
I am glad you guys are here and I need to start posting regularly again.
So many thoughts and emotions in my head. I thought I was going to have a nervous breakdown yesterday but didn't, thank God. I felt like leaving and flying home yesterday. How selfish is that?!
I have not visited in years, seen her in two, so guilt is way up there. I feel better today. My husband and I are taking a day together and spending it at the Columbia river gorge today.
Pushing her in a wheel chair yesterday was surreal. I am praying and calling my sponsor, doing readings. Using my tools. Getting drunk is not an option.
I am glad you guys are here and I need to start posting regularly again.
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Praying for you and your family Elisabeth.
I was sober through the end of my father's illness and death back in May.
He was 65.
I am SO grateful that I was sober for that and was actually able to be present for him.
It was the most profound experience of my life to actually be there, sober, with him in his last moment. I am SO grateful because it really made a difference in how I handled it.
I certainly didn't expect my father to die at age 65. I always figured I would be a basket case whenever one of my parents died. But it wasn't like that at all, and I'm sure being sober had a lot to do with it.
If you had told me before that I would have been able to feel peace, serenity and acceptance while watching my father die at age 65, I would have told you that you were crazy. But that's exactly what happened.
Now here, a couple of months later, I still feel that peace and serenity because I know that everything really is OK, no matter what.
My dad doesn't feel like less, he feels like MORE!
I am SO thankful that I am sober so that I can feel that.
Hang in there.
All is well.
I was sober through the end of my father's illness and death back in May.
He was 65.
I am SO grateful that I was sober for that and was actually able to be present for him.
It was the most profound experience of my life to actually be there, sober, with him in his last moment. I am SO grateful because it really made a difference in how I handled it.
I certainly didn't expect my father to die at age 65. I always figured I would be a basket case whenever one of my parents died. But it wasn't like that at all, and I'm sure being sober had a lot to do with it.
If you had told me before that I would have been able to feel peace, serenity and acceptance while watching my father die at age 65, I would have told you that you were crazy. But that's exactly what happened.
Now here, a couple of months later, I still feel that peace and serenity because I know that everything really is OK, no matter what.
My dad doesn't feel like less, he feels like MORE!
I am SO thankful that I am sober so that I can feel that.
Hang in there.
All is well.
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