off to rehab on friday...
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off to rehab on friday...
Well...it's all set up & the way to a new life is before me. This Friday I leave behind a husband and 4 kids for 30 days to go to rehab. I am nervous, freaked out, scared...but also hopeful that i'll get a chance to have a real shot at a good sober life!
Happy recovery to everyone
Happy recovery to everyone
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i'm freaking out!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Thanks for the encouraging words! I think I'm actually having an anxiety attack right now! For the past few hours I have just felt shaky & my nerves are crazy! I'm trying to catch up on work and it's so hard to concentrate - I just want to burst into tears but I can't, I have so much to do before Friday, it's already almost 1am here.
I think the realization is setting in. I chatted with close family & a couple very close friends and everyone I talked to was so happy for me and very supportive. On the other hand, everyone also said in one way or another that they thought I was making the right decision and they were glad I was because they had witnessed the progressive spiral that lead to where I am now. My husband even looked at me & said he thought it was the right decision. I guess I didn't expect everyone to agree with me going to rehab...dang, I think I'm even in denial now with everything in my face.
I'm totally freaking out - if anyone has any "what to expect from rehab" advice or how you felt leading up to going like I am now less than 2 days away - it would sure help
I think the realization is setting in. I chatted with close family & a couple very close friends and everyone I talked to was so happy for me and very supportive. On the other hand, everyone also said in one way or another that they thought I was making the right decision and they were glad I was because they had witnessed the progressive spiral that lead to where I am now. My husband even looked at me & said he thought it was the right decision. I guess I didn't expect everyone to agree with me going to rehab...dang, I think I'm even in denial now with everything in my face.
I'm totally freaking out - if anyone has any "what to expect from rehab" advice or how you felt leading up to going like I am now less than 2 days away - it would sure help
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Woke up way too early...my heart is racing & I think i'm still in panic mode. I'm trying to just breathe as I have so much to do before I go tomorrow. A few days ago I was happy & hopeful...I still am hopeful but scared to death. Change. That is what is in store for me. Learning how to live life and not have my life run by alcohol. At this moment all I want to do is drink & numb this feeling out. Thankfully I don't have time for that today. I have all my kids home & am getting work set for me to be gone. I have to tell my kids still that i'll be gone for a month...omg...how am I going to do this?
Ok...still breathing, one thing at a time right?
Ok...still breathing, one thing at a time right?
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JS.... Its a good place to be. Take a deep breath. Let it out.
When you are there you can relax... Let things go for just a short while. Know everything is ok.
I found the most peaceful time was when I could just focus on one thing.... Me.
Your kids are fine... Your husband is fine... Just do what YOU need to do.
My best to you.
When you are there you can relax... Let things go for just a short while. Know everything is ok.
I found the most peaceful time was when I could just focus on one thing.... Me.
Your kids are fine... Your husband is fine... Just do what YOU need to do.
My best to you.
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((((jstar)))). Goood for you! I don't think youll regret it. I never did, it was the best thing for me. just keep your ears open, your mind too, do the work and take suggestions.
Im so happy for you!
Love from Lenina
Im so happy for you!
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Jstar, of course it's a scary thought and leaving your family for a month will be so hard for them and for you. But the main thing is to take advantage of this opportunity and change your life for good. You can return home as a sober person and give your family the best of you.
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In less than 12 hrs i'll be on the train to LA....it's so real 
this all totally sucks...i've had like 4 major anxiety attacks today and i've been trying to wrap my head around it all....
Well....my LAST night out drinking is really "in" my house by myself...f'n pathetic really.
Rahab tomorrow....i'll worry about all this when I get there....30 days...omg
this all totally sucks...i've had like 4 major anxiety attacks today and i've been trying to wrap my head around it all....Well....my LAST night out drinking is really "in" my house by myself...f'n pathetic really.
Rahab tomorrow....i'll worry about all this when I get there....30 days...omg
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Jstar, that panic is perfectly normal. You are doing something really positive here and will be leaving your addiction behind. It is only natural that your AV will be kicking off. You have a great opportunity to just concentrate on yourself here and start healing. Massive hugs XXX I hope it all goes well x
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Originally Posted by hypochondriac 
Jstar, that panic is perfectly normal. You are doing something really positive here and will be leaving your addiction behind. It is only natural that your AV will be kicking off. You have a great opportunity to just concentrate on yourself here and start healing. Massive hugs XXX I hope it all goes well x
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