jakec

I used last night and I used today. It hasn't even been a a full day since I've used and I am already finding myself on the verge of giving up. My disease keeps telling me to sneak out tonight and get my fix.

How the hell did I make it almost two months without using in rehab and now staying clean for a day seems impossible.

I went to an NA meeting tonight and shared, but I honestly don't feel much better than before. I was almost expecting to feel like this since I've flushed the remainder of my pills down the toilet this morning.

Anna

It's hard, but you need to hold on and get through those moments. You know it will get easier.

Dee74

stay strong Jake.

I spent whole days here on SR....you can do this

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mecanix

Hi jakec , i found an xbox, a book, posting online or some music helped me get through those white knuckle moments . Anything to focus my attention away from the disease telling me things .
Stay strong .

M

Chrisy

Welcome. You are in the right place.

get some dvd's and drink lots of water.
Music helps too. People on this forum
will be here to support you.

Do you have a doctor that knows you are
getting off the drugs?

Chrisy

jakec

Yes my doctor knows that I'm getting off drugs.

And thank you everyone for the support!

freshstart57

What you have chosen to do takes courage, Jakec, and courage is what we need to see this through to the other side. There's good stuff waiting there for you, and it is all real. You have done this before, so once more, my friend. The sweet part of this whole story is that this can be the last time you get dragged through this. Keep it up!

Live2Run25

You can do this jake. Decide once and all to jump off the merry go round of addiction, and never turn back! It's hard work, but further you go without using, the more it will be just a distant memory... you can do this!!

tomsteve

ok, so ya went to an NA meeting. thats good. however goin to meetings aint gonna keep ya clean. theres footwork. doing the same thing over and over expecting different results is insanity. got a sponsor?

Hunter101

Thats great and its the truth! Like when I drink, I expect to get a good buzz. But my tolerance keeps making me drinking more to try and get the result

jakec

yes I have a sponser!

DisplacedGRITS

jakec, glue your a** to the ground today if you have to. make it through today. stay on, SR, read, go to another meeting...do anything but use. heck, when i was in rehab i got hooked on coloring like i was back in grade school. i still go back to that from time to time. $4.99 for markers and free print outs from the internet. nice, intricate stuff that i have to concentrate on and get just perfect. there are lots of things to occupy your time but you have to go look for them. just make it through today. you have the power to do it.

Jitterbugg

It's easy not to use in rehab since you know you are in an environment where you can't get your DOC and you could be tested. I never craved once in rehab. It was out of the question so I it seems that addicted part of the brain was subdued. But out in the real world, the addict comes alive as you pass a liquor store or see your dealer's number on your phone and there aren't any barriers to using. You have to change your thinking.