Friday the 13th Then & Now
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Friday the 13th Then & Now
Friday the 13th, January, 6 months ago I was fed up.... Again for the billionth time. Sick & tired of being sick & tired. Drinking my 6th beer, many shots of whiskey & it was not enough. I wanted more. I couldn't see straight but I still wanted more... I was so mad at myself that my tolerance was so high & that never ending pit of addiction. No matter how much alcohol I poured in it, it was NEVER satisfied. Years & years & years of the mind boggling merry go round of addiction.
That was my moment of clarity, I was FINALLY done w/ it. I was not going to let this poison ruin one more moment of the precious life God gave me. I promised myself I would do WHATEVER it took to get sober. If it was AA, AVRT, detox, etc.
You all know know the feeling, quit, relapse, feel awful, swear I'll never do it again, go a few days, even a week, then head dive back into oblivion..... Welcome back to misery....thinking I'll never be able to do this
This time I was TRULY done.
Well I had found SR, I read & posted, read & posted some more. Read books on addiction.
I finally Found strength & wisdom from those who'd walked this road before me. They gave me the courage to head this demon head on. I gathered up tools from here & there, listened, argued, shared, offered advice, etc.
After months of learning from others, different things, it slowly got easier. It was a rollercoaster for sure but had numerous people cheering me on, supporting me in the only way our SR community can.
I've since rekindled my relationship w/Jesus,back to exercising, quit smoking, depression & anxiety are completely gone.... I never dreamed my life could ever be this good. I was suicidal b/c I thought I couldn't ever break away from the chains of alcohell.
I'm proof, it can & does get better.
I know I still have alot to learn & I'll never know it all but I do know....I will never drink again & I'll never change my mind by the power of Christ in my soul. Amen!
You can over come this, there is abundant life beyond addiction. Take the option off the table of ever drinking again & it is much easier. Accept that you'll never be a "normal" drinker & that's ok. There is fun & excitement in life without poison. Don't believe the Demon drinks lies.
The truth is you can be free & happy!!!
That was my moment of clarity, I was FINALLY done w/ it. I was not going to let this poison ruin one more moment of the precious life God gave me. I promised myself I would do WHATEVER it took to get sober. If it was AA, AVRT, detox, etc.
You all know know the feeling, quit, relapse, feel awful, swear I'll never do it again, go a few days, even a week, then head dive back into oblivion..... Welcome back to misery....thinking I'll never be able to do this
This time I was TRULY done.
Well I had found SR, I read & posted, read & posted some more. Read books on addiction.
I finally Found strength & wisdom from those who'd walked this road before me. They gave me the courage to head this demon head on. I gathered up tools from here & there, listened, argued, shared, offered advice, etc.
After months of learning from others, different things, it slowly got easier. It was a rollercoaster for sure but had numerous people cheering me on, supporting me in the only way our SR community can.
I've since rekindled my relationship w/Jesus,back to exercising, quit smoking, depression & anxiety are completely gone.... I never dreamed my life could ever be this good. I was suicidal b/c I thought I couldn't ever break away from the chains of alcohell.
I'm proof, it can & does get better.
I know I still have alot to learn & I'll never know it all but I do know....I will never drink again & I'll never change my mind by the power of Christ in my soul. Amen!
You can over come this, there is abundant life beyond addiction. Take the option off the table of ever drinking again & it is much easier. Accept that you'll never be a "normal" drinker & that's ok. There is fun & excitement in life without poison. Don't believe the Demon drinks lies.
The truth is you can be free & happy!!!
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Friday, January 13th was the day my grandson, Rhys, was born. It's hard to imagine all the wonderful things that will come into your life in your recovery.
Friday, January 13th was the day my grandson, Rhys, was born. It's hard to imagine all the wonderful things that will come into your life in your recovery.
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