debsam

Hi IC,

You asked for some suggestions with what you could add to prevent this happening again and I think Sugarbear's suggestion is a great one. Sometimes we just need to go back to some basics.

Structure not only keeps us accountable, but before we realize it....we're being productive and that is very cathartic and a powerful positive for our minds.

I think you know exactly what to do...now pull all of that together and keep going

And read! It gets me outside of my own mind.

Innerchild

Thanks debsam. You are right I know what to do. I am soooo angry at alcohol if it were a person I would beat the crap out of it I am not a violent person but I hate it with every fiber of my being.

Sapling

I think the best advice you got in this whole thread is right here. It's the only thing that worked for this hopeless alcoholic.

Innerchild

I am going to get off SR for awhile and go read the BB but will use this site more instead of Facebook. Id like to tell my sponsor Ive been reading it said my prayers and mediated before I call her.

Sapling

Good for you IC!

desertsong

IC, I totally get you. I relapsed over and over again because I loved that soft little "cocoon" alcohol gave me. I could curl up on my couch, be alone in my foggy little world, and shut everything else out. It felt good, it felt comforting. I didn't want to let it go. But it also took away my life. I couldn't drive because I was drunk all day ... I couldn't be here for my kids and husband ... I couldn't even have a life ... couldn't go grocery shopping, go get my hair done, do ANYTHING. But that isolation felt GOOD on some level. I get it. I really do.

You will do what you know you need to do. Here with you for support.

debsam

IC,

I've read the BB many many times....and I'll never stop going back to it.

Innerchild

desertsong, the thing with me is alcohol is not my cacoon and stopped being one a long time ago. One sip makes me feel ten times worse.