freedom1955

I am writing this free handed, just writing down my feelings.
I have been clean and sober 1/12/08 and cigarette free 11/29/09.
I moved to Ohio from Pittsburgh 3/05/09 I met this lady on a site
and we chatted for about six months and I decided to leave Pittsburgh
and move in with her. We got married 06/03/11, she is a big lady {heavy}
and white and I was use to blk and small ladies. She has a hole lot of
medical problems so we decided not to have sex cause it hurt her after
about three times. We have tried oral sex and she just doesn't like to
give it so we stopped that. All was going great until lately I miss the
female touch, my wife and I cuddle a lot and I love that. I don't want to
leave her I deeply love her and she loves me deeply and loves me for me.
I don't want to go out on her but I am getting stressed living with out
a lady's touch and having orgasms. I need to pray and give it to my
Higher Power {Jesus} But if anyone wants to give me feed back please do.