DisplacedGRITS

My addiction has been telling me that i really don't need to go to meetings or find a home group. I've been doing great with very minimal cravings so why should i bother looking for a meeting? Oh, and no need to really get back to working the Steps. The meetings and my other Step work has served it's purpose. I'm cured. I know i can't drink and i'm not at risk so life is fine and i should just go on my merry way.

And get complacent...

Yeah...i see what it's doing there. I'm hitting a meeting tomorrow and i'm not stopping until i find a home group.

wonderfullife

too bad we can't bottle up the soil when we hit bottom/reach the point of understanding. the future is the best ammunition for my addiction. for instance, if I am to quit soon, lets go out with a bang. I was going to quit soon years ago. somehow, that lie of one last bang kept it going. no more.

Fernaceman

Amazing how we can deflate those crazy thoughts by simply saying them out loud. It takes so much power away from them.

Good luck on finding a home group! There's one out there that has a seat with your name on it.

Threshold

I found myself in the same stupid, oft repeated situations at work...I thought to myself, "well, sobriety hasn't made life easier" and then I said "but it hasn't made it worse!" Active addiction made it worse, and worse and worse, and just when I thought it couldn't get any worse...worse.

I guess sobriety wins!

DoinThis

'It's Saturday, everyone is drinking, it's only one night '. Yeh right

Fallow

'just a few tonight wont hurt you, you can start sobriety tomorrow just as well'

along with visions of sitting on the porch with drink/smoke in hand.

Thankfully I decided to go work out instead. I feel great! Had a healthy snack now Im goin to bed

MalkavianEmily

Not today, but "You were a nicer person when you were drunk" is one of her favourites.
Singing a few lines from (the first verse of) Comfortably Numb was another thing she liked to do. Telling me that "No. You don't have a problem. You've not been giving in to the cravings... So, how's about a drink, huh?"
At least I'm aware of her now. Looking back, I heard her before and didn't know it. Spent time arguing with her. And lost.

Jeni26

How well are you doing?!!!
Congratulations....you've earned a drink...

Praise7

NO one will know

neferkamichael

you've quit this long, and you can do it again

EternalQ

Today my addiction is saying:
"No one will like you if you are sober. You'll be rejected."

So I just told my addiction:
"Oh really? Well everyone in my life NOW likes me. And some of those people drink. And some people like me BETTER since I am SOBER. And I like me better sober! So what new person would reject a new friend,, who loves and respects herself, and whose friends and family love her? Any new person who rejects that, is a new person that I do not want around me! Like you, my addictive voice! I reject you! How about that? Now scram!"

foodie1

Great thread!! We're getting ready for a camping trip and it's been super-hectic. All last night as I ran around like a mad chicken and my anxiety went through the roof, that little voice said, "just to take the edge off, so I can relax and get this stuff done. How else am I going to get to sleep? My mind's racing, just one, to sleep." Who is this person?? I'm not giving up my 10 months just for a little momentary anxiety!
Thanks again for the thread, just what this alcoholic needed!

Fandy

"Oh come ON! You know you're not REALLY an alcoholic....it doesn't matter much either way"

hypochondriac

'It could have been worse and no one really noticed...maybe I can just drink on weekends, it's been a hard week'

Sneaky git that AV!

NellieM

"You don't drink enough for you to have to quit. Lighten up!"

freshstart57

I still get the `Maybe someday`thing once in a while.

Songtx

Been having thoughts about it being "ok" to have a beer all day and I won't. This one is a doozy thpugh. I was taking an antacid and thought "I wish this woud make me high" Wow!

sugarbear1

"Even when I hear people relapsing after 5, 10, 15 years of sobriety"

go to you tube and listen to "4 Seasons of Recovery" by Don C. which explains why some people go back out at these times...

SnowDaisy

Today my AV is telling me, "you'll never beat the depression without drinking". Well, I can try.

EternalQ

Today it was: "You know, chores and routine stuff were so much more enjoyable when you drank..."

My answer: "Yeah right... Cause I didn't hardly do them when I drank,.thats why! It was chaos. Duh Now I actually function and have some self respect!"