Anna

I'm glad you did the right thing and went to the ER. I'm sure it was scary to do that, but it's the safe thing to do.

Please continue to read and post here and you can find lots of support and information for your recovery.

fancycat

Hi there, i just want to say i am literally going through the same thing. I just went through a month long drinking all day every day binge. I have severe anxiety and depression and was using alcohol to cope. Im 26 years old and am uninsured. I got to the pointof feeling like death. I couldnt take it anymore and just went to the er this past Saturday. Got fluids, started withdrawaling but they gave me meds that helped immensely. They gave me detox meds to take at home. Im on day three now. Its been terribly rough but totally worth it. Good for you for getting help

Sapling

The first three days are rough fancycat...You should start evening out in the next few days...Hang in there...Everyday gets better.

hopeful78

same here- no insurance......called 2 alcohol specialists today to price out the sessions......the way i look at it, anything I pay will be worth it......even if i am only able to go for a little while. there is always the AA meetings and this site.....keep trucking along!

sharp75

hi thats similr to me, i drank heavily for 9 years and i seemed fine drinking heavily but one day it hit me so hard that i broke down, panic allday everyday and keep thinking im dying. iv contacted my doctor who was seeing me about anxiety but didnt know in detail about the drink but i admitted in full detail and he has been a brilliant help. im now waiting for detox. its a scary thing to go through im terrified allday everyday but the people i have spoke to on here and at the alcohol team have reassured me my symptoms are alcohol related and detox will benefit me greatly, so now i really cannot wait til that day. unfortunately with regards to drink many people have to reach rock bottom before they realise they have a problem as trying to tell someone in denial just doesnt work. i wish i could shout to the world how i feel but they wouldnt care and would just carry on until one day it finally hits them out of the blue. i cant offer too much support on how to give up as im still going through the process myself but as you will have noticed theres always someone who has been in your position here to answer your questions. take care and i wish you all the best

Sapling

I thought you were going into detox today sharp?

bender2

I like don't feel better after the doctor. They said I wasn't in withdrawal if i hadn't drank since late Saturday. I guess ill just try to sleep and go to work tomorrow and deal with them. Fingers crossed i dont get fired. I just don't know how I'm gonna be able to work I'm so exhausted and have to talk to people all day. I'm so nervous. What will I do if I have no income and no where to live?

Dee74

Welcome bender

Try not to get lost in the what ifs...it's best to try and deal with stuff like that when it happens - worrying does nothing much either way, yeah?

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Dee74

welcome to you too fancycat

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bender2

I cannot fall asleep I don't know what to do. I still feel so dehydrated. I have ambien but I'm scared to yake it. They wouldn't have discharged me if I wasn't ok right??

Dee74

Most of us have trouble sleeping at first Bender - a lot of us have trouble with anxiety too....both are very common.

If you feel like you need help though you can always go back to ER or visit your own Dr. for a second opinion

Here are some natural tips for insomnia
Insomnia? 42 Simple Tips to Help You Get to Sleep - Insomnia treatment, cures

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Payton

The first several days are going to be really hard. I wouldn't be surprised if you were self-medicating an anxiety disorder with alcohol. On day 3 of my first time I bit my lip so hard that it was all bruised up, and didn't even realize it until I looked in the mirror - I had been chewing on my lips all day out of stress and tension. Anxiety is terrible, panic is even worse. My heart goes out to you.

Don't speculate about losing your job. It has not happened, and you are still employed. If you didn't lose it from drinking nonstop 24/7, I doubt you will lose it being sober! Just take it one moment at a time and please come here for support.

bender2

I still cannot function today I went outside and immediately had panic. I called rehabs and detox. i can't sleep I can't eat I feel so dehydrated. I can't live like this anymore

Sapling

I really think it would be a good idea for you to check out an AA meeting...Even if you don't use the program....Just going to a meeting and being around people that understand what you are going through...Have been where you are...Would be nothing but good for you...It won't cost you anything...The people are nice and would love to help you...What do you have to lose? Really?.

bender2

That's exactly what i am doing. Waiting to.goin now. Thank you

Sunny27

Hey bender,

What is the latest? Just caught up on your story. Try and stay calm.... you are within reach of help so don't be working yourself up.

Sunnyxx

riggedgame

Hang in there, bender. Remember that you have to go through this hell exactly one time. Then never, ever again. Do whatever it takes, remember that this process is front loaded and that every minute of emotional/mental/physical anguish you endure now will benefit you 100 fold down the road.

With every step you take up this steep, frigid, seemingly interminable uphill climb, you're getting closer and closer to a flat, warm, calm vista. You'll be surprised how quickly it opens up before you once you arrive. You won't really be able to see it until you're already there, but it's coming.

Hang in there. It will, and does, get easier.

soupcon

How did the meeting go? Is this your first time ever at AA?

pinkdog

I can't believe they wouldn't take you to the ER. You can still go. You can go to a dr of some kind. I believe that would be the best thing for you to do now.

MrsKing

This sounds like me the last night I drank. It was the most horrendous, terrifying night I have ever lived through and all I can say is that I sincerely sympathise with you and hope that you are doing so much better now. I have read through the responses and I am glad that you are looking for help. I really do feel for you, I wish I could give you a hug and tell you that things only get better from here... honestly. That fear and terror is something that does go away with time. I know what you mean when you say you think you are going to die. I was there, I felt exactly the same. I couldn't sleep, I couldn't do anything except live in fear. Stay strong and try to leave the alcohol alone. Don't pick up a drink. You are going through the worst of it right now and I promise it doesn't last forever... it gets easier... you will not be here for very long at all. Keep us updated. I am sending you lots of luck and love.