Dont ever forget just simply quitting drinking is just the beginning to be sober and happy. :)

Congrats on your life now compared to before.

Sapling, It totally makes sense. Wow. Thank you. I am assuming that is from the Big Book? The concept of it being an allergy to alcohol is new to me, and at first I thought- no, that's not me. But as I look back on my years drinking, even as a teenager, while it wasn't a huge "problem" until the past 10 years, I definately felt I "drank differently" than others. Thank you again.

They gave me that book in rehab...I'd been drinking 35 years...And I didn't have a clue why I drank like I did....Once I understood that...It made it easier for me to solve it. That is from the Big Book. And it has a solution too.

Sapling, I read the excerpt you posted, and find it comforting to think it's not ALL in my head! :lmao

It makes sense though...One beer always ended in disaster for me.

I know. I become downright irrational after the first one...I keep going, right into the territory of regret and shame. :-(

it's not easy because the disease of alcoholism is cunning, baffling, powerful, patient, and deadly.