So Setting Myself Up For A Relapse But...
 

Pain, hurt, isolating. Reading the book on what the F**K. Things are unraveling and I'm not so good at mending. Giving myself every ratioale and excuse to bottle myself. Like why I should fills a page, why I shouldn't just I can't and don't want to. Guess I need to go with the rationale, sane reasons because that is sanity and salvation. Going to make some calls, meetings and decide that living with some pain, panic, fear and discomfort beats not living. I'm good at supporting my family, lots of work to do on supporting myself. A little fearful of going out but terrifyied of staying inside myself. I guess when the sh*t hits the fan its best not to stand in the breeze and breathe it in. Pain passes, self destruction lasts forever. Thinks for being here, best get busy living. As always, best to all and to my self.

Hang in there, Fitz! We're all here to support you. You can do this!

We do recover.

hey Fitz, maybe take a walk or go to sleep, that rehab is expensive..

Fitz, feelings can really hurt but they cant destroy you. Drinking can.
It will pass, tomorrow is a new day. Wishing you peace.

Fitz, sending prayers. I think it takes strength to post and reach out like you did.
Keep it up, you are worth it

Fitz, feelings are just temporary. They have no power unless you give them power. Just wait them out, no matter how uncomfortable. We have to learn to do this stuff without our crutch. You have more strength than you know, friend. Draw on it. Now. :)

It takes strength to reach out...I never did, that's why I kept relapsing...still don't know if I will be able to ask for help in crisis time...keep posting, meeting whatever works for you...positive thoughts coming your way...thanks for being on SR, your posts have helped me...

There is no problem that alcohol can't make worse

If I'm having bad day, I just go to bed earlier

This too shall pass

For me drinking is like having sex with a gorilla, we're not done until it says so

The definition of insanity is doing the same thing when you know the results will be the same

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Just thought I'd send some positive quotes your way. I'm sure you've heard them all before, but it helps to hear them every now and again.

I relapsed a year ago. AND IT WAS NOT WORTH IT.

Going to bed early too, plan to wake up sober. Made my connections, made my corrections. Always a new day if I believe.

((Fitz)) - Glad to see your latest post:)

Hugs and prayers,

Amy

I isolated alot. It helped me to take daily walks, go to the store and library. Fresh air and all. I'm used to it now. Also urge surfing helped me so much with the anxiety.

Yep, always a new day. Good for you, Fitz. Don't buy into the lies your addiction feeds you—there's no comfort to be found in that bottle, only deeper despair. Give yourself time. It's sometimes slow going, climbing out of the pit we dug for ourselves. There are good days and bad days. Either way, we're 24 hours farther along. That's progress.

Side Note: Reggie, I love your posts, but I'm going to do my best to forget the image you just conjured...

I love reading your posts Fitz. You say what a lot of us feel.
Keep posting and reaching out to us, we are your friends xxx

Today is a new day Fitz...And it can be just as wonderful as you want to make it. Stay safe, sane and sober! We need you here.

Today is a new day and I'm going for a walk. Thanks all.

Enjoy your walk Fitz...Smile at something!