1 month! :)
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1 month! :)
Wow, nothing like quitting booze to slow time down! Feels like sooooo long. Man this has been sooooo hard at times, so hard I am almost convinced I want to drink. It's an amazing feeling the next morning to know I made it through again without drinking. Each bad day now only lasts 24 hours if I don't drink! Normally wake up recharged and refreshed 
The only thing that has got me thru at times is SR. I've used so much advice from here, thank you. I no longer get into conversation with my AV, I simply just acknowledge its there and try not to listen. If a 'nice drink' thought comes into my mind I conciously think about how horrible the last majority made me feel. I think of my daughter, I think of the future and how I want to be free of this obsession and the only way to do that is completely abstain and amazingly I've actually prayed, each time getting a subtle and a couple of times not so subtle response from my HP.
I do however feel the need for relief (a lot). I know I need to get to AA as I do feel it there but each night make a silly excuse not to go. A few times I felt so uncomfortable at AA that I left wanting to drink, I think that's what I'm scared of. Hopefully this week! Maybe I'll pray about it.
Thanx everyone
The only thing that has got me thru at times is SR. I've used so much advice from here, thank you. I no longer get into conversation with my AV, I simply just acknowledge its there and try not to listen. If a 'nice drink' thought comes into my mind I conciously think about how horrible the last majority made me feel. I think of my daughter, I think of the future and how I want to be free of this obsession and the only way to do that is completely abstain and amazingly I've actually prayed, each time getting a subtle and a couple of times not so subtle response from my HP.
I do however feel the need for relief (a lot). I know I need to get to AA as I do feel it there but each night make a silly excuse not to go. A few times I felt so uncomfortable at AA that I left wanting to drink, I think that's what I'm scared of. Hopefully this week! Maybe I'll pray about it.
Thanx everyone
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Originally Posted by DoinThis 
I do however feel the need for relief (a lot). I know I need to get to AA as I do feel it there but each night make a silly excuse not to go. A few times I felt so uncomfortable at AA that I left wanting to drink, I think that's what I'm scared of. Hopefully this week! Maybe I'll pray about it.
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DoinThis - congrats on the one month (wish I was there right now!). Working on day one here and know by my month anniversary, I'll feel like a new person and won't consider drinking again. SR has worked for me in the past and that's why I came back today.
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Congratulations! Sometimes we're not listening to the HP I think. That's when we miss the signs, hence subtle and not so subtle responses I ask that he just write it in lipstick in big red letters on my windshield so I don't miss them, he he.
I made an excuse not to go to my 2nd meeting last night. The first I went to several months ago, I really did not like, so I wanted to find another. I really am just scared.
Thanks for sharing your advice when you start to feel like you need a 'nice' drink. That helps me alot. Your "AV" what's that? Is that like the devil on one shoulder and the HP on the other talking to you? If so, that's what I feel too!
I ask that he just write it in lipstick in big red letters on my windshield so I don't miss them, he he.I made an excuse not to go to my 2nd meeting last night. The first I went to several months ago, I really did not like, so I wanted to find another. I really am just scared.
Thanks for sharing your advice when you start to feel like you need a 'nice' drink. That helps me alot. Your "AV" what's that? Is that like the devil on one shoulder and the HP on the other talking to you? If so, that's what I feel too!
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Cinderblock, AV = Addictive Voice. You'll read a lot about it on here. Yes it is the devil on one shoulder. We call it The Beast. The real me doesn't want to drink, the beast does.
Thanx for all your responses, struggling today and yesterday Thanx to PMS, sorry fellas! Praying I'll go to AA tonight. It's a local one, 4km away and one I wanna visit regularly. No excuses!
Thanx for all your responses, struggling today and yesterday Thanx to PMS, sorry fellas! Praying I'll go to AA tonight. It's a local one, 4km away and one I wanna visit regularly. No excuses!
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