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I was suicidal while I was drinking. My life was such a mess and in my drunken fog I couldn't see any way out other than to die and be done with it.

After I quit drinking for good it took a while to 'settle down' and be comfortable in my own skin but it was worth the wait and the effort. I no longer have such thoughts and am grateful to be alive and able to do what I want to do.

Scolova

Every time I use to think "I need to quit", I'll get a thought about suicide, as if there was no other way out. So glad those thoughts were proven wrong and gone.

4ml

It's nice to be able to talk with other alcoholics.

Dee and the rest of you... always seem to understand.


Thanks, to all of you !!!

Sapling

I know a great place where you can express your feelings...And people will not only listen.....They'll help you with your alcohol problem...They helped me with mine...My last two years of drinking...I was killing myself and I knew it...It was a painful way to do it...When I got tired...And I couldn't take it any more..I asked for help. Now I wouldn't give up this life I have for nothing.....I'm hanging on to what I got.

4ml

Thanks, Sapling... I don't know if I even have the energy to ask for help.

Thanks, to all of you for listening.


Its really helped.

Sapling

Do you have the energy to drink?....That's all it takes.

sugarbear1

Create the energy to ask for help, you are worth recovery. Please call someone, even the suicide hotline. 1-800-SUICIDE

lydiebreeze

4ml
You say you don't have the energy to ask for help - it seems you do, you're posting here, which to me is a sign that you DO want to live, and you ARE asking for help.
I'm so sorry that your father recently passed.
You said you sometimes don't talk to your family due to your drinking...
Perhaps the loss of your father could bring you and your family closer together.
Hoping you feel more hopeful soon.

CarolD

It's really hard when our loved ones are no longer physically here
I'm sorry for your loss...

Sending prayers for comfort to all who love your Dad.

I certainly hope you will soon move into a sober life...it's so much
better than drinking. I've not considered suicide since I found
AA recovery....regardless of what has happened .
Alcohol is a toxin...a liquid that depressed me.

karilynn27

I am so sorry for your loss 4ml.
And my answer to your question is yes. I followed the link posted by soberween. On morning Glorys post there I went to the link that said if you are thinking of suicide read this first. I hardly had the energy to breathe.
It really helped me and for the first time in my life I reached out for help. It has changed my life. I am also currently under a drs care for my depression. There is no shame. Read that link, it really helped me to understand what was actually happening to me
Love and prayers
Kim

MalkavianEmily

Nod. Just couldn't count high enough. That's part of the reason I'm still here. Underestimated the amount I needed. Plus my fiance sent me off to casualty and they pumped me full of charcoal. I'm here, and I'm not in quite such a dark place any more. I think it was when I was still 'only drinking at events' and there hadn't been one for a while.