lhenderson

Good Morning Family,
I am getting ready to pick up my one year medallion in 18 days. This is huge for me because I have been struggling with my addiction hard for the last 3 years. I have never in my life time been able to accumulate this much time. But for the last couple of nights I have had one drug dream after another and they were so real. I am lucky if I have gotten 5 hours worth of sleep in the past couple of days. Why all of a sudden is this happening? I have not had drug dreams in a very long time. I feel like it is the devil trying to tempt me. I pray everyday, morning,noon, and night. I have no desire to use again I dont know where all this is coming from all of a sudden. Has anybody out there ever experienced this? And if so please I could use some advice. This is scary stuff I feel like I am going crazy.

Mo S

Speaking only from my experience; drinking/drugging dreams are normal especially around anniversary times. I think you have a healthy fear of drinking- can be a VERY good thing.

doggonecarl

One year is monumental. Congratulations!

These are dreams. Nothing more. Perfectly normal. Don't get blown off the tracks by it.

laurie6781

Mo is absolutely correct.

There have not too many folks in recovery that I know that haven't had some pretty weird weeks before during and after their anniversary date. I personally use them as a positive to remind me of where I do not want to go back to.

Each year, it gets a little better, and the time span does get shorter. I remember my first anniversary I started getting 'crazy' with weird drinking and using dreams about 3 weeks before and they lasted until about 2 weeks after.

Now, with 31 years, just 6 days away, I had a drunk using dream last night, first one since last year at this time, rofl.

So, use those dreams as a 'positive' reminder of where you no longer want to be.

I have found that when I do get a drunk and/or using dream it is usually because I am under more than my normal 'stress.' Excessive stress will, every time, bring on a drunk using dream for me.

So smile, be thankful they are just dreams, and ENJOY your first anniversary.

J M H O

Love and hugs,

Anna

I'm sure it's the upcoming anniversary date that is shaking things up.

Congratulations on your sober year.

awuh1

These dreams, at least in my mind, can be an expression of a subconscious desire for a drink or drug. It was the oddest thing, but when I was about to get 1 year
the thought kept occurring to me that I should celebrate by having a drink. It was so completely irrational that it was occasionally enough to make me laugh out loud.

I think sometimes anniversaries can remind us that our identities are changing. The very notions of how we see ourselves (for example drinker into nondrinker). This creates a conflict that is played out subconsciously, sometimes in dreams. I never had this problem after the 1 year anniversary.

Dee74

Personally I don't worry about dreams lh....like Laurie and Mo said, they're pretty common around anniversaries...

I personally don't believe they're my subconscious desire to drink, thought they may reflect my subconscious thinking about my anniversary

In the same way as I still have a vivid dream about not handing in a paper at high school, I can dream about something that used to rule my life, in drinking....

It's like a memory bubble finally reaching the surface and breaking...

Congratulations on one year!

D