Weasel1966

I posted earlier when I was on a high.

Now I am on a low.

I guess detox has not fully passed.

Oh well.... Nothing to do but stay sober. Tough times. Tough times.

I hate holiday weekends like this.

I will not give in today.

You all ,use be tired of hearing the same things over and over.

Yeah yeah. Nothing changes nothing changes.

Healthyfood

Weasel1966

How many days are you sober?

Weasel1966

Day 2.... Again.

Just sunny day. Time. Makes it tough. But I want to be sober. Just sucks.

I do understand things differently and plan on keeping on keeping on.

Kayak

i have about 100 days and this is first holiday. i know how you feel. going to meeting tonite and SODAT in the AM. at day 2 i had no hope for the future, but now i look back and am glad i hung in there. withdraw ended in about 30 days with only the high blood pressure hanging on now. i stayed close to other sober people (relatives, church, meetings, friends) pretty much ANYONE that would listen to me. it does get better.

Weasel1966

Thanks... I know it will. I have only my partner for direct support. Some meeting. And good people here.

My partner is in the same boat so we try tot to make it harder for each other.

Woke up such on a high. Then the reality of the day set in.

Not even contemplating giving in just wish I had other emotions to focus on.

Happiness is a choice.

Anna

Weasel, if it's a nice day where you are why not get outside and enjoy the good weather?

I hope you get through the day.

Weasel1966

Thanks Anna.

There is no hope involved. I want to and will be sober. If that's not where my mind is at then nothing will ever workout for me.

Yes it is nice. But have you ever been to long island new York? There are soooo many people that on a holiday traffic is nothing I can deal with. So relaxing at home on the porch.

I will be fine but needed to whine a little. Needed support.

scrambled2012

I hope you're feeling better dude.

Maybe we shoudn't be happy today, but rather quitely reflect on those who have suffered and died fighting for Liberty; and reflect on how lucky we ourselves are to be able to wallk, to see, to hear, to not have the scars of such battle on us; because of those who stood in our place.

Hang in there dude.

Jeni26

Keep going weasel. You and I are both starting again. I'm on day 3.
Let's try and figure what went wrong before and change it so it doesn't happen again.
Keep posting xxx

JustARide

Hang in there Weasel.

How was Jim Thorpe?

Weasel1966

Always a great place to relax. Worth the trip. Had a good dinner last night and got home real early today to get through NY traffic.

Thanks for asking.

I will hang in there....

HitRockBottom70

Hey Weasel,
Wishing you a great day. Maybe if you let someone else know about quitting alcohol, it may help keep you more accountable to yourself.

Last weekend I was going out boating with my best friend. I had no intention of letting him know what was going on due to embarrassment. I had said I stopped drinking due to a diet. He brought gin with him in the cooler! WTF! He was going through a really rough time and he does not have a drinking problem so I did not say anything at that point, i looked at it as a great test.

We talked about everything going on with him (relationship problems and his moms cancer and surgery that monday) and I tried to be supportive. I did not want to add some thing else to his plate, but after he offered me a drink I had to. I told him I had quit because if I have 1 I don't stop. I told him not to worry, I am fine and I made up my mind not to drink ever again. He no longer asks me if I want to drink, and I also have a little more accountability. We do quite a bit together so it is nice to have him know as well as my partner.

Just wanted you to know one piece of my plan. I hope it helps.

I wish you a wonderful day,

Weasel1966

Hey good to hear from you.

I agree thats a good plan. As is common with alcoholics we find ourselves isolated. The only person I speak to is my partner. Everyone else is someone from the bar we go to. We moved here to long island three years ago but there is not much chance of meeting new friends unless you put yourself in a bar situation. People on long island are not easy to connect with. Not like Maine.

No excuses I know but what drives me to go there is the loneliness. Accountability will have be solely my own. As well it should.

There is no quick solution to that but meetings do help a little.

Glad your sticking with your decision. You are an inspiration.

DisplacedGRITS

All a natural part of life as well as detox, Weasel. Roll with the punches and remember that This too Shall Pass.

Weasel1966

Sounds more like just deal with it. But the way you said it is nicer.

HitRockBottom70

Weasel,
Yeah, find you way to deal with "it" (that alcoholic voice in your head). There are many techniques. If only AA is not working for you, add something to it. There are some great suggestions of books on the may thread today. I am going out to get a few today. Also, there is a free AVRT class online you can do. You may find it helpful. Just google it and you will find it. You may find some anti AA stuff too, just disregard that BS. Use the tools that work for you from any resource available!

By the way your post inspired me to go get the books. I will be going in the next hour. Thank you!

2granddaughters

AA works.

If you find that all else fails it will be there for you.
I wish you the best.

Bob R

DisplacedGRITS

Haha...yeah, that's kinda right Weasel. I find myself in low spots from time to time. When i do, i usually pick up a book or zone out to TV or distract myself in other ways until the feeling passes. It always does and holding on to that knowledge helps get me through. I hope it helps get you through it as well.

sugarbear1

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