Tyre

What to do when you are halfway.
You know you have to give up
You think you can manage it (kind of)
Phucken people they nag the **** out of you.
BUT, I don't know, I am not convinced that it is what I think.

and that is the problem for me, you know???

hypochondriac

Half way where? x

Tyre

Half way between giving it up and not. Recovery but still boozing to some degree. The main point being - I don't need to give it up- my illogical mind says

hypochondriac

Eurgh, booze will poison your mind hun. Have you looked into AVRT before? That might help sort out the chatter in your head x

Tyre

I'm seeking those that understand the question and why it is asked (i.e emotive based) as opposed to a logic/rational response.
I will have a look at the supplied reference.
Thank you

Gottalife

I don't know what you do, but I know what I did. After many disasters and failures etc etc. I was still unconvinced so I went yet again and tried some controlled drinking, in the light of what I had learnt so far.
Plan, to have a few beers and be home by 6. Outcome, made it home by 6 no problem, just 4 days later. I remember one night on that bender I was drinking with an ex schoolmate and telling him I was alcoholic and could not continue drinking. Anyway, I survived and that bender put the cork in the bottle. I returned to AA willing to go to any lengths. Aint had to drink since.

Change4good

Perhaps I shouldn't answer the question, as I am not familar with the terms you are using. (But like that you have a plan!)

For me, there is no half way. It is kind of like being "half pregnant." Not possible.

Best to you today.

Dee74

Hi Tyre

welcome back

I was caught between knowing I needed to quit, but not really wanting to, for years.
I was always trying to cut back too - but that never lasted very long for me.

Pride and fear kept me drinking - I didn't want to change, I didn't want to be different, I didn't want to be beaten, and I didn't know what I or my life would be like when I was sober.

But I knew I wasn't letting myself be all that I could be.

I've never regretted giving up the booze - it was toxic to me and it kept kicking my behind - in fact I lost just about everything to drink - career, relationships and health.

I'm not sure anyone here can give you the magic words that will lead you to quit - its an inner thing, I reckon....

but I will tell you I wish I'd quit years earlier when I first realised I had a problem.

You'll find a lot of support and ideas here - good to have you here again Tyre

D

Threshold

what I did when I was in that state was to hang out here, read some recovery and spirituality books, ask myself what I ultimately wanted from my life. And I spent my time feeling what it was like to be me, in my body. Feel it, when I was sober, and when I was wasted. Really take the time to feel those different conditions.

That helped me choose what I wanted.

tomsteve

for me, i knew for a long time alcohol was a major porblem in my life, but i didnt want to believe it, so i stuffed it and kept on drinking. i wasnt gonna listen to anyone. i had to get to the point where the pain of getting drunk exceeded the pain of reality. then i was desperate enough to do whatever i had to do to stop drinking....or kill myself.
lookin at my past, i could see that the Big Book of AA was right: half measures availed me nothing.

sugarbear1

I was where you are. It took ten more years of drinking and horrible consequences to get me to stop. It wasn't until I realized life was terrible drinking and life was terrible not drinking when I got help from AA.

It's a personal journey.

I'm glad you are here!

2granddaughters

You will surrender when you have had the living daylights beaten out of you by John BarleyCorn... if you don't die first.

You don't have to ride the garbage truck all the way to the landfill.

Does that answer your question.

All the best.

Bob R