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Hi everyone.
Where do I start? That's the question. I know what the king of hearts said, but what is the beginning?
I recently started a blog, and... yes, it was painful reading for me. I wanted to get my thoughts down on virtual paper, and also try and get a grip on the past. Because if you don't learn from it, you end up repeating it. And guess what... I have a bad feeling that's what I'm doing right now.
I'm trying to quit drinking. There are times when I'm not sure if it's worth it, that the effort might not be better spent elsewhere, after all, I can function just fine, thanks. And I'm finding it very hard to quit.
Why am I trying to quit? Because I'm due to start university in September. I need to save money, and I... can't bear the thought of being fat again. For me, that's a big thing. Not being fat. I've been there, and hated it.
Anyway, I'm having a hard time quitting. All the 'want to' in the world doesn't seem to be enough. There's always an excuse. I'm not strong enough, I know this. I know I can't quit without help. That's why I'm here.
I recently started a blog, and... yes, it was painful reading for me. I wanted to get my thoughts down on virtual paper, and also try and get a grip on the past. Because if you don't learn from it, you end up repeating it. And guess what... I have a bad feeling that's what I'm doing right now.
I'm trying to quit drinking. There are times when I'm not sure if it's worth it, that the effort might not be better spent elsewhere, after all, I can function just fine, thanks. And I'm finding it very hard to quit.
Why am I trying to quit? Because I'm due to start university in September. I need to save money, and I... can't bear the thought of being fat again. For me, that's a big thing. Not being fat. I've been there, and hated it.
Anyway, I'm having a hard time quitting. All the 'want to' in the world doesn't seem to be enough. There's always an excuse. I'm not strong enough, I know this. I know I can't quit without help. That's why I'm here.
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Originally Posted by MalkavianEmily 
There are times when I'm not sure if it's worth it, that the effort might not be better spent elsewhere, after all, I can function just fine, thanks.
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Welcome MalkavianEmily!
I think that's why we're all here..... because we couldn't stop drinking or drugging without some kind of help/support. I was terrified to even think about it at first, but I'd also gotten tired of living with the hangovers and anxiety/depression, not to mention being shackled to alcohol and all the work it took to hide my addiction from the world.
I'm glad you're here - you're not alone!
I think that's why we're all here..... because we couldn't stop drinking or drugging without some kind of help/support. I was terrified to even think about it at first, but I'd also gotten tired of living with the hangovers and anxiety/depression, not to mention being shackled to alcohol and all the work it took to hide my addiction from the world.
I'm glad you're here - you're not alone!
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Hello Emily:
A.A. helped me get quit and stay quit for some time now....
might just be what the doctor ordered in your situation as well.
Google and read AA's "How It Works" and "The Doctors Opinion". See if you can identify.
All the best.
Bob R
A.A. helped me get quit and stay quit for some time now....
might just be what the doctor ordered in your situation as well.
Google and read AA's "How It Works" and "The Doctors Opinion". See if you can identify.
All the best.
Bob R
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Welcome...
Many of us are winning over alcohol..useing various concepts/programs/methods.
All take some energy and commitment
hope you soon will begin a sober future...we are here to support you..
Many of us are winning over alcohol..useing various concepts/programs/methods.
All take some energy and commitment
hope you soon will begin a sober future...we are here to support you..
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I've been racking my brains. Actually, I've not just racked them, I've applied thumbscrews to the little so and sos, and they still won't talk.
It's been a long time since the last time I stopped, and that was the last time I seriously had to get my weight down, as in I had to try and lose over 50 pounds. When I'd lost the weight...
The thing is, I don't remember it being this hard.
And then I was on anti-depressants for... a few years. I remember thinking they did nothing but make me fat, thinking now, I could have been wrong.
Sorry if I'm rambling, part of it is that my memory of the 1990s isn't very good.
Here and now though, I've started going to meetings. That helps. I'm taking things one day at a time, and trying not to beat myself up when I slip up. And I'm trying to pick up the phone rather than getting a can.
I'm not always managing, but I'll get there. One foot in front of the other.
It's been a long time since the last time I stopped, and that was the last time I seriously had to get my weight down, as in I had to try and lose over 50 pounds. When I'd lost the weight...
The thing is, I don't remember it being this hard.
And then I was on anti-depressants for... a few years. I remember thinking they did nothing but make me fat, thinking now, I could have been wrong.
Sorry if I'm rambling, part of it is that my memory of the 1990s isn't very good.
Here and now though, I've started going to meetings. That helps. I'm taking things one day at a time, and trying not to beat myself up when I slip up. And I'm trying to pick up the phone rather than getting a can.
I'm not always managing, but I'll get there. One foot in front of the other.
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Hi again Emily
When I quit adter many years toing and froing...it was acceptance that helped me, not willpower.
I accepted that I had a toxic relationship with alcohol.
I also accepted the fact that I could have the life I wanted, and be the person I wanted to be...or I could drink....but I couldn't do both.
SR really helped to change things - it really made a difference to have a community of people who understood, and a community to ask questions of and be accountable to.
It also helped me immensely to help others here
Glad to have you with us
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When I quit adter many years toing and froing...it was acceptance that helped me, not willpower.
I accepted that I had a toxic relationship with alcohol.
I also accepted the fact that I could have the life I wanted, and be the person I wanted to be...or I could drink....but I couldn't do both.
SR really helped to change things - it really made a difference to have a community of people who understood, and a community to ask questions of and be accountable to.
It also helped me immensely to help others here
Glad to have you with us
D
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