ovrock

planned it, then set out and executed the plan to perfection...

I got stone drunk last night

no excuses, i wanted too. i knew i would feel like this. but i wanted to drink. i missed it. i missed having fun. i missed the feelings, the taste. the first beer was goooooooooooood!!!

then..

i woke up in my bed this morning not knowing how or when i reached there... it was around 2:30 this morning, coz i phoned a friend that time.

i feel ill. been vomitting all day. so the good news (i guess) is that i cannot drink. i have to go to work now, feeling totally ill and weak. god help me tonight.

i'm useless

Sapling

Lesson learned Rock...Onto day one.

Healthyfood

ovrock

Day 1 tomorrow?

Anna

Why did you plan it, Ovrock?

Can you learn something from that experience and move on? I hope so.

Zencat

You never have to feel that way again. Tomorrow is a new day and a new opportunity to start a new life alcohol free.

Dee74

Welcome back Ov.

I agree with Anna - you'll need to look at what happened, and why, and what you can do to avoid that from here on in...but I hope you can make this your turning point

D

Impurrfect

(((OV))) - there were times when I had totally planned a relapse down to the last detail. Fortunately, my "recovery brain" spoke up and made me think it through. Yes, I would be numb for a little while, but I would want more, more, more, and I didn't wanna go there.

I hope that this experience has been a learning one.

Hugs and prayers,

Amy

ovrock

Back home... was sick on the ferry... another gig lost...

Sapling

What did you learn Rock?

desertsong

Ovrock ... I feel for you. Something you're doing (or not doing) isn't working. What needs to change? Nothing changes if nothing changes ... been there, done that myself many, many times. Onward and upward, my friend.

Gerbosko

How are you suppose to stay sober when you keep telling yourself that alcohol is good?

Just curious.

Hevyn

Ov - That's just how I felt the last time I came off a binge. After what I put myself through, I vowed that would be the end. I'd never go there again - and I haven't. Sometimes we have to be hit over the head a few times. Now maybe you'll be better able to stick to your plan.

CaiHong

Hi Ovrock,
Get back up on the wagon. I have really come to understand how getting sober can be so difficult without support of a program and like minded people around you.

What are you doing Ovrock to maintain your sobriety?

Not often, but sometimes I have the idea of getting wasted just to get that euphoric feeling but I know where it leads and how I will end up, those days are gone.

I can't drink without negative consequences, looks like you can't either.

Don't give up Ovrock we are all here for each other. I am so glad that you posted I am not sure I would have had the courage (false pride).

Love
CaiHong

ovrock

Hi all, I'm up and about. Trying not to beat up myself too much for my slip... I feel pretty normal today. Probably gonna spoil myself with comfort food today...

Oh well...

Sapling

It happens buddy...I'm glad you're back...Take it easy on yourself today.....And don't forget how well you were doing. Time to move on!

EXM6

Never say you're useless, that couldn't be FARTHER from the truth.

Hang in there.