changer

ok. got through the day. went to another meeting, met some more people. and it's good- every time i go, it's good, and i learn more.
but i did have such an urge to go get beer on the way home.
next step is finding a sponsor, and a home group. and it's weird, but i'm nervous about doing that...i'm scared i'll ask someone to be my sponsor and they'll say no. i'm laughing as i type this, because it's just ridiculous.
someone saying 'yeah, no thanks' is still about 8 million times better than waking up still drunk and trying yet again to make it through the work day.
so much better than checking my fb with one eye closed every morning, afraid of what the hell i posted....
oh well, another day down.

Sapling

You're doing great...You're going to have those thoughts...It's what you have been doing for awhile...Just don't act on them. Don't worry about someone saying no....If you pray...Pray for a good one. The main reasons someone would say no is...They aren't ready to sponsor anybody yet...Or they may be sponsoring too many people at that time...Most people are honored to do it. You're doing fine....Give yourself some credit...And be grateful for the days you have. Good job on your time and hang on to it.

DisplacedGRITS

Try asking the secretary of a meeting if they have any suggestions for a sponsor. Lots of simes some of the oldtimes know who is avaliable. I got mine because an oldtimer interrupted a firsg step meeting (not even mine!) and basically threw me at an available sponsor.

tomsteve

holy crap, changer, ya just talked about me at the beginning! i was so scared to ask someone to be my sponsor. them thoughts of rejection were terrible for me and it took a year before i finally did it. it sure coulda made it a lot easier for me iffen i got some courage to just ask. i was doin a LOT of meetings and listening to everything i could and studying the BB and doin what it said, but getting a sponsor sure woulda helped me understand a lot more quicker.
them urges didnt start hittin me til about the 2nd or 3rd month. thats when the fog and misery started lifting a bit. my car would go to turn into bars i would pass on the way to meetings!! but i put my trust in them people at the meetings, people i had never met before, and in what the BB said and eventually, with T.I.M.E. they got less and less. today i dont have a drinkin problem. just a thinkin problem. ODAAT!!

IndaMiricale

Right on yet another day of learning and working toward a better foundation of sobriety.

Keep it up, more to be reveled.

Isaiah

Those doubts and fears aren't signs that you're doing anything wrong. I doubt there's an addict on this site that hasn't had to face those trials. They aren't easy, but keep striving. It might feel like you're being over-whelmed, but every day/hour you go without a drink is a much bigger victory then you yourself may even realize at this moment.

I am also trying to find a new home group and it's making me a little nervous too. I am pretty sure it's one of those things in life where I'll walk into the room terrified and leave it feeling relieved and connected.