aeo1313

Hi everyone! I haven't been around too much because on Monday I got sick with the creeping cold virus (I work in a high school and everyone is sick) and have been couch bound. Anywhooo...I am still clean and sober and have made a few more meetings and am doing pretty well. Had a "*&ck this" moment last night, but it went away and I knew not to give in to it--For about 10 minutes though I had myself totally convinced I did not have a problem, AA was not for me, and my life would be fine if I had a drink and smoked some pot. I realize I will need to stay on my toes and connected to people in recovery or those thoughts may stay for more than 10 min.

All in all I'm feeling good (except for this stupid cough )

Ann

Dee74

Hope you feel better soon Ann - congratulations on your 10 days

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thesun

Well done Ann, well done for not giving in.

Michael66

Well done on the double figures Ann. Hope you have a really nice weekend.

CaiHong

Hi Ann,
Good on you for the 10 days, don't discount AA. if you don't want to do meetings at least have a look at the Big Book and listen to AA speakers. Early in sobriety I listened and read as much as I could to instill the message that alcohol is not for me.

Take care
Hope you feel better soon
CaiHong

Sapling

Sorry about the cold aeo...Next time you get that thought...At the two minute mark...Call your sponsor...Or somebody else on that long list of phone numbers you better have. I'm sure they will unconvince you.

cheeto

Congrats on Day 10 Ann! I am on Day 10 too and have been to AA meetings in the past and really didn't like them so of course I went back to drinking.Well I have realized that I CANNOT do this on my own and whatever it takes to keep me from drinking again I gotta do and give it a chance.So as soon as I get home from Mexico (where I am right now) I am going to get myself to AA meetings.I am so sick and tired of being sick and tired. One thing that is helping me is that I catch my addictive voice every time now,recognize it and tell it where to go as it wants to ruin my life and kill me.
Anyway good for you and stay strong....
hugs

aeo1313

I am in AA and I really enjoy it...my discounting it was my addict brain at work. I have a sponsor and have started working the steps.

aeo1313

I had the thought in the middle of an AA meeting! By the end of the meeting my brain was back on the right track!

Sapling

LOL....You kill me.....But you're doing great.

Anna

Hi Ann,

It sounds like you`re doing great and good for you for not getting caught up in the roller-coaster emotions.

Sapling

I wanted to ask you...How do you like your sponsor so far?

DisplacedGRITS

Glad you found that those feelings pass aeo. I had a hard time around my one month period where i found myself convincing myself that i had this alcohol problem licked and that i could moderate. I started planning a little "celebration" of a couple of beers and who would know but me. It took a few days of reading the Big Book, going to meetings and reading and posting here but the feeling passed and the realization that i had to hold myself accountable to myself was what was going to get me over the hump. Keep up the good work. You are doing it!

aeo1313

She is ok. I am getting to know her. She is twice my age, but we have a lot in common. For one thing, she is the only Jewish person I've met in AA, and we both have a history of eating disorders. Her life is very different from mine, but she has been sober and clean for 25 years and that's what I want!

Sapling

That's good aeo...You just want someone to take you through the steps correctly...I think 25 years shows you she did something right...Good for you!