lydiebreeze

Last night something good happened. I'm on my 4th day now - and here's the deal.
Last week I was having quite the bender - BF told me that's it - he was done - never call him again. (he's living out of state at the moment)
Our pattern was always - I'd screw up (drink) he'd get upset - I'd sober up and beg him not to leave - I'd do good for a while - he'd forgive me and I'd go right back to drinking.
But last week when he told me that was really it and he wanted no contact with me I respected it. (normally I would've called and called and emailed and emailed) I found this site shortly after he told me it was really over and I started reading in the friends and family forum and I realized that I REALLY had to respect his wishes. I had to be responsible for me - I couldn't keep leaning on him. Besides we'd set up quite a dangerous and co-dependent pattern.
Anywho - long story short. I DID respect his boundaries. As sad as I was I didn't contact him. I concentrated on myself and I stayed sober even though I was really, really sad.
Last night he called to see how I was doing I was elated and my wicked little addiction perked up its ears and said "Hey - we've got at least a 24 hour free period to drink!"
So I wrestled with it for a while and said "NOOOOO - we are NOT going to drink"
Instead I ate half the take-out I'd ordered during my bender (I order the food when I'm drinking but I don't eat it)
I ate about 3 meals last night and slept close to 11 hours.
I have a food hangover

sugarbear1

Great job!

Sapling

I used to do that...Order food...Not eat it...Not remember ordering it the next day. Ahhh...The wonders of alcohol. I hope you find a way to not have to drink again...It will give you a good idea what life is supposed to be like.

SASA

lol. I still eat tons of cake and ice cream every time I feel I want a drink. I beleive now it is actually the sugar I am craving.

SOBERINNEPA

I put on 53 lbs in my fist six months out of rehab. I've lost 18 of it but, dayum, ice cream tastes good.

lydiebreeze

I heard somewhere that alcoholism and blood sugar irregularities were connected in some way.
I have absolutely no evidence to back that up - but it sorta makes sense to me.
Back in the day when I was a "heavy drinker" vs alcoholic - LOL - I could avoid a night of embarrassment by eating first! If I ate - I didn't want to drink. If I wanted to DRINK - I didn't eat.
I don't care how much weight I gain - I never want to drink AGAIN!!!!!

Bruno1979

Welcome Lydiebreeze and well done.

Frenzy

I too have a food hangover...otherwise known as muffin top

desertsong

Food is good.
Alcohol is not.
When weighing one against the other .... well, we need food to live, but not alcohol.
So if you're using food right now to help you through the tough early days, who cares? You're not drinking.

First things first. Nourish your body ... the rest will come later.

I say this as I'm gnawing on some Twizzlers.

Sapling

Love it!

soberred

I lost 8lbs during my last binge. In 3 weeks I put on 10. I say that as I polish off a bag of short bread cookies, a heath bar and chicken pasta alfredo. I'm not thin but not over weight. Yet. Mangia!

nonblondechef

Since giving up my "liquid diet" , I have actually started eating again. I'm so full at the moment I feel like I'm going to have a "chew baby"! .....now I'm thinking about ice cream! Help! LOL

Sapling

You guys are killing me here.

Phils69

I've been making an effort to eat healthier since I quit. Eliminating the beer calories has helped too. Dropped about 18 lbs in two months.

Jitterbugg

Haha! I used to order pizza when I was drunk. Often, it would be a 'special' with two large pizza's with 3 toppings each and chicken wings. Two days later it was all still sitting untouched on the kitchen counter.

SOBERINNEPA

Like I've told Mrs. Sober, "Baby, nobody ever got arrested for fat driving."

Tutti al tavolo a mangiare!

stillsleeping

53 pounds, that's amazing! You must be well cuddly

I'm cool with gaining weight - I like my curves! - but I hate getting out of shape. As long as I can break a run, I'm happy. Chocolate is good for the soul...

Still
xxx